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i was once so sensitive that i'd cry
if i saw anger in someone's eye
everywhere i looked i saw hate and strife
all the cruelty of every life
all i could do was hope it would end
when i found someone to be my friend
but i found no one who did not betray
the words of love they tried to say
and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i think my heart and mind got old
and i think my soul was somehow sold
and i think i was never told
the truth
i was once so considerate that i would
give everything i could just to be good
for kindness was the best feeling i could feel
and giving unconditionally made it real
but i found no one would give the same way
people take advantage and then do not stay
but i found no one who did not betray
the words of trust they tried to say
and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i think my heart and mind got old
and i think my soul was somehow sold
and i think i was never told
the truth
so is this pathos, a poor me song
is this a foolish game dragging me along
i don't want anything from you
unless you can tell me... what is true?
i was once so generous that i'd give
everything away, that's just how i lived
now i find myself alone and feeling so tired
i can barely remember how i was once so inspired
to believe in the human heart
and in love that never ends
now i find myself alone
wondering... where is my friend
and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i think my heart and mind got old
and i think my soul was somehow sold
and i think i was never told
the truth
and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i wonder if it's time to fold or unfold
and i feel like i have been rolled
and i think i was never told
the truth
maybe i'm depressed
maybe i'm a mess
maybe i am just tired of games
maybe this is your song
are you singing along
will you give me your real names?
is this embarrassing
do you feel anything
or have you grown this numb too?
i wonder what you think
i wonder what you drink
i wonder what surprises you
i was once so curious that i'd ask
everyone i met to remove their mask
everywhere i looked i was lies and strife
and i did not believe that was real life
I want to believe in the human heart
and in love that never ends
now i find myself alone
I don't want to pretend
it's ok...
I still find myself alone
wondering... where is my friend
and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i think my heart and mind got old
and i think my soul was somehow sold
and i think i was never told
the truth
and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i wonder if it's time to fold or unfold
and i feel like i have been rolled
and i think i was never told
the truth
i wonder if you're too busy
i wonder if you're depressed
i wonder if you're just dizzy
i wonder if you're upset
i wonder if you are hearing
voices telling you to run
or someone demanding you do not
continue what you have begun
i wonder if you are feeling
i wonder if you are numb
i wonder if you just want to
punish yourself for things you've done
i wonder if you are being
careless or insensitive
have you turned off your heart again
or just think you have nothing to give
i am wondering about you
what is real and what is true
what you want and what you do
i am wondering about you
i am wondering about you
what is old and what is new
what inspires you to break through
i am wondering about you
i wonder if you're sleeping
it's the middle of the night
i wonder if you're dreaming
about darkness or light
i wonder if you're sharing
what is real and what is true
i wonder if you're caring
that i am wondering about you
i wonder what shuts you down
i wonder what turns you on
i wonder what remains
i wonder what is gone
i wonder what went on here
and did i miss the signs
i wonder what you wanted
betwixt and between the lines
i am wondering about you
what is real and what is true
what you want and what you do
i am wondering about you
i am wondering about you
what is old and what is new
what inspires you to break through
i am wondering about you
i wonder if you're sleeping
it's the middle of the night
i wonder if you're dreaming
about darkness or light
i wonder if you're sharing
what is real and what is true
i wonder if you're caring
that i am wondering about you
i wonder why i'm caring
and wondering about you
if this is all you want
then this is what i give
the best i can do
is give you what you want
if this is what you need
then this is what shall be
the best i can do
is help your fantasy
come true
you have a gift with words
this is what you inspire
the best i can do
is fulfill your desire
some see a sacrifice
some see a foolish game
some see the end product
some only see a name
but whatever it is, it's yours
claim to fame
here's glue for your broken wings
here's food for your soul
here's magic to do anything
here's what you can't control
make it yours for it's yours
if you want it to be
the best i can do
is feed your fantasy
and that's reality
1993 we met in correspondence
she knew exactly what to write
to get into my heart and mind
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
1995 she confessed her love for me
she told me her whole life was a lie
she needed me so she could fly
love is forever
love always grows
this is the most
precious dream I know
1997 two years of bliss and pain
I gave her control of my brain
she tried to make me go insane
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
1999 I gave her everything I could
from far away I waited for her
to do what she said she would
all the while she was begging me to hang on
all the while she was asking for everything I could give
all the while she was keeping me living in yesterday
using the power I gave her to keep me so far away
1999 she begged me to hold on
wait for me, she said, and I did
even when she was gone
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
I never really knew what was going on
all I knew was that my heart was gone
she begged me to leave it in her hands
is there anyone who understands?
2001 I crawled back to where I came from
finding myself lost and broken
half waiting half trying to understand
what happened and how to begin again
without my heart, how to begin again
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
2004 a correspondence, first time in three years
I felt my anger and pain dissolve in precious tears
I asked her why she actualized my greatest fear
I asked her to return my heart and mind if she would not come here
her silence fell upon me once again (I asked, why won’t you share?)
her indecision rose like a wall once again (I asked, why don’’t you care?)
only to find her that she would once again… disappear
I thought my heart was open
I thought my doors were open
I thought I was ready for love
so why am I alone
I thought that I was free and
I thought that I was me and
I thought I was over the past
I though that I had known
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
2008 again a few words from so far away
she confessed she used me, what else was there to say
was I the fool still waiting for her to return my heart?
and now, am I free?... where and how do I start?
she said she married another and he gave her a child
she moved on but she still will not let go
there is no room in her life for me today
but she will not let go
is it because I know
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
love is forever
the best I’ve got
how it can end is something
I still do not know
all the while she was begging me to hang on
all the while she was asking for everything I could give
all the while she was keeping me living in yesterday
using the power I gave her to keep me so far away
I never really knew what was going on
all I knew was that my heart was gone
she begged me to leave it in her hands
is there anyone who understands?
she still keeps the best of me
under her lock and key
even though she started over long ago
had another child with another man in 1999, oh
and yet she still will not return the things that keep me hanging on
so what am I to do when my heart and mind are gone?
this is the only way I know to carry on
love is forever
no matter what
love is still the most
precious dream I know
I am so far from the person I used to be
I used to sing
I used to dance
I used to love
passion, romance
I used to run
I used to fly
I used to dream
my mind could touch the sky
I used to feel
the human touch
I used to want
to be in love too much
how far I fell
to hear love’s calling
could it be that
I am still falling
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
all the time alone
when you disappear
i question my trust
wonder why i care
all the time alone
like missing rungs on a life ladder
and then you return and tell me to climb
as if all the time alone
doesn't matter
do you just need to have control
it is always on your terms
silence is a lonely noise
do you just like to watch me fall
you treat me like a toy, old toys
a child leaves broken toys behind
but what of broken boys?
all the time alone
between times you appear
i question what love means
and why i should share
all the time alone
like missing rungs on a life ladder
and then you return and tell me to climb
as if all the time alone
doesn't matter
every now and then
i face reality
in all the time alone
i can see
you come back telling me
that i matter to you
i say, really?
but all the time alone
brings more clarity
time alone matters
to me
and in all the time alone
what really doesn't matter to you
is me
if you don’t like to be touched, keep your distance
i have learned how to feel like that but it is not really me
if you don’t like to be hugged, keep your distance
i have learned how to keep mine, but that is not really me
i want to find some one who will remind me who i am
how i feel and how i love to be felt
i want to find someone who can believe and understand
how true love makes a heart melt
can your mind melt
can your body melt
when was the last time you felt
how you love to be felt
if you don’t like to be touched, keep your distance
i have learned to be afraid but that is not really me
if you don’t like to be loved, keep your distance
i have learned how to be numb, but that is not really me
i know why i am down deep inside
i know i’ve learned how to run and hide
i’ve learned how to pretend i’ve died
but there is so much more denied
and sharing will remind me
sharing will make it real again
sharing will help me find me
sharing will let me feel again
sharing’s the answer
sharing is what life’s about
so much has been buried deep inside
sharing will let it back out
i want to find some one who can really share
how it feels to be in love and be felt
i want to find someone who can believe and understand
how true love makes a heart melt
can your mind melt
can your body melt
when was the last time you felt
how you love to be felt
when you’re sharing
life is sharing
i want to be sharing
and sharing will remind you
sharing will make it real again
sharing will help you find you
sharing will let you feel again
sharing’s the answer
sharing is what life’s about
so much has been buried deep inside
sharing will let it back out
so afraid of living
so afraid of dying
so afraid of giving
so afraid of trying
feeling like i may be
the only one who isn't lying
sitting here alone
just alibying
wasting away
not even watching the world going by anymore
what's left to say
i left behind what i was living for
once in a dream
i fell in love forever
now it just seems
whatever, whatever
why should anybody care about me now
when i'm not ever caring about myself
how can i find a friend when i've forgotten how
all the dreams are lost up on a shelf
and i'm
so afraid of living
so afraid of dying
so afraid of giving
so afraid of trying
feeling like i may be
the only one who isn't lying
sitting here alone
just alibying
wasting away
not even watching the world going by anymore
what's left to say
i left behind what i was living for
once in a dream
i fell in love forever
now it just seems
whatever, whatever
somewhere buried in my mind
lost dreams calling from above
somewhere buried in my heart
i dream of falling in love
oh god i
still dream of falling in love
but i am
so afraid of living
so afraid of dying
so afraid of giving
so afraid of trying
feeling like i may be
the only one who isn't lying
sitting here alone
just alibying
wasting away
not even watching the world going by anymore
what's left to say
i left behind what i was living for
once in a dream
i fell in love forever
now it just seems
whatever, whatever
i don't have much time left in this life and all i do is work and moan
doesn't feel so good always being on my own
i don't have much hope left in this life for finding someone to love me
doesn't feel so good always feeling so lonely
will i always be
so afraid of living
so afraid of dying
so afraid of giving
so afraid of trying
feeling like i may be
the only one who isn't lying
sitting here alone
just alibying
wasting away
not even watching the world going by anymore
what's left to say
i left behind what i was living for
once in a dream
i fell in love forever
now it just seems
whatever, whatever
girl from texas
how you move me
your vibrations
pass right through me
and they take me
somewhere higher
there’s no telling
what
you could inspire
girl from texas
can i touch you
i’ll be gentle
i’ll be kind
i’ll be loving
as you guide me
through your body
in
to your mind
girl from texas
i embrace you
i adore you
loveliness
from this distance
i will love you
as you wish
and
as you are
girl from texas
you excite me
see me tremble
in your view
above all else
i’ll respect you
what you say is
what
i will do
girl from texas
know that this is
real and true
girl from texas
may you kiss this
let it through
girl from texas
please don’t miss this
feel it too
girl from texas
what your bliss is
i will do
girl from texas
i confess this
i love you
