unrelationship

all the time alone
when you disappear
i question my trust
wonder why i care

all the time alone
like missing rungs on a life ladder
and then you return and tell me to climb
as if all the time alone
doesn't matter

do you just need to have control
it is always on your terms
silence is a lonely noise

do you just like to watch me fall
you treat me like a toy, old toys
a child leaves broken toys behind
but what of broken boys?

all the time alone
between times you appear
i question what love means
and why i should share

all the time alone
like missing rungs on a life ladder
and then you return and tell me to climb
as if all the time alone
doesn't matter

every now and then
i face reality
in all the time alone
i can see

you come back telling me
that i matter to you
i say, really?

but all the time alone
brings more clarity
time alone matters
to me

and in all the time alone
what really doesn't matter to you
is me