Friday, June 2, 2017

When Truth is a Lie

I am the hunchback of notre dame
I am the phantom of the opera
I am the one who knows one love
unconditional
eternal
sad

In this world there is no place for me
innocence gives up or finds misery
there is no place for real honesty
untraditional
infernal
mad

beyond all the rules
beyond all the fools
who lives to give it all

pretending to god
as if it's too hard
to live to give it all

they call these saints
miracle hearts
who live to give it all

high on pedestals
to pure to be touched
to be left alone to fall

Saturday, February 25, 2017

You

Actually, I wish we were in touch much more
than I wish you were here
we always got along so well
when we were not there

words in the phone and in the mail
and memories would never fail
and secrets we would never tell
when we were not there

Honestly, We both wanted to share our lives
without giving ourselves away
we always had the kind of fun
that children have at play

there was always a disconnect
the commitment we would reject
and something that was never done
something we'd never say

and now the memories
comfort me
on long and lonely nights

and days when nobody
is around
to reconcile the fights

no one to make up with
no one to share the kiss
so I remember you
and how we shared a simple bliss

and I wish you were here
but even more
I wish so much

that we
were still
in touch

Sunday, November 29, 2015

cats and lovers

we stay awake all night waiting for you
we watch you sleeping, that's what cats do
we live our lives completely dependant on you
we wait for food and cleaning and love, that's what cats do

and are lovers all that different
when we fall for someone new
doesn't everything comes second
to the new union of two
best friends and pets and family
important as they may be
are left waiting for you to come
to keep them company

we stay awake all night waiting for you
we watch you sleeping, that's what lovers do
we live our lives completely entangled with you
we wait for sharing food and love and life, that's what we do

and the people without lovers
live alone outside kiss
like stray cats and dogs
not knowing what they miss

all the time just longing for
what they do not understand
the feeling only lovers know
the touch the heart commands

and the people without lovers
live alone without a flame
like the chill of winter
in a place without a name

all the time just searching for
what is missing this life
the magic only lovers know
in two words husband and wife

and the people without lovers
live alone outside the charm
like a sing without a singer
like a hand without an arm

all the time reaching for something more
just beyond the reach it seems
the passion only lovers know
that fills and haunts their dreams

we stay awake all night waiting for you
people without lovers waiting for dreams to come true
we live our lives dreaming of a rendevous
with a lover, that's what people without lovers do

Saturday, December 27, 2014

the record skipped

the record may skip, but it was never broken

the heart was torn, but it was never broken
he lost his mind when he lost you
the truth is sadder words were never spoken
than when you said let's be just friends
he did not know what to do
the record skipped when you said
"i don't love you"

he still doesn't think you meant it
you were just trying to keep a friend
but he just might have to face
you put her ahead of him

he doesn't want to believe it
he believed he knew your heart
and he saw you were broken
compromised and torn apart

but you went on, he had to go away
he could not lie, and so he could not stay
somehow you let go and found another to take his place
but was it ever as real as what you had with him
that it may be a question you'll never face

for conformity and compromise is the easier thing to do
than to overcome what others say you should do
and stay true to the love inside of you

is he living an illusion
is he lost in love's confusion
is he creating delusion
to believe in your true love

is it just a fantasy
is it just inside of him (or me?)
to believe reality
is the dream you still dream of

true love is always true
the record skipped, still stuck on you
the record skipped, still stuck on you
the record skipped, still stuck on you
still stuck
still stuck
still stuck
still stuck on you

Monday, October 13, 2014

silence

i trusted you
you broke my heart
you stole from me
invaded my space
now i don't feel safe
anywhere

i trusted you
you took my peace
you betrayed me
with silent lies
now i don't know how
to care

i don't want you to go
i know you have nowhere to go
i know you are lost without me

but i don't feel safe with you
i don't know what to do
pretend this is not misery?

it will not work
i will not be
a pretender in my own home

i trusted you
you stabbed me in the back
now we live together alone
until you can make it on your own
not we live together alone

was it your pride that lead you to steal
when you know you could have just asked
and i would have given you anything
why did you have to sneak into savings
and take without telling
did you think i'd never notice?

silence screams for a reason
hope screams for a change
love screams for honesty
trust screams for a chance to be repaired
but will you do your part

your silence screams defiance
my silence screams a prayer
the ball is in your court now
will you show you really care
or was i a fool to believe
hope, love, or trust were ever there

i trusted you
you broke my heart
you stole from me
invaded my space
now i don't feel safe
anywhere

i trusted you
you took my peace
you betrayed me
with silent lies
now i don't know how
to care

Saturday, June 14, 2014

the kiss

he saw her one day
and the image of her face
could not find a way out of his mind

he found himself walking
by the office where she worked
every chance he could find

she became a distraction
and then an obsession
and then, a friend
a very best friend

and then they kissed
and kissed and kissed
it was a kiss they both dreamed of
when they dreamed of love

she was the girl of his dreams
and he was the boy of hers
and life became bliss
innocent bliss

orgasm came
before they took their clothes off
just the kiss was enough
the kiss was enough

they held each other
as close as two bodies could
and they never let go
and they never let go

she was the girl of his dreams
and he was the boy of hers
and life became bliss
innocent bliss

and then they kissed
and kissed and kissed
it was a kiss they both dreamed of
when they dreamed of love

they held each other
as close as two bodies could
and they never let go
and they never let go

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

sweet little sister

sit on my lap little sitter
and we'll rock each other deep into the night
hold tight
the bed bugs will not bite

sit on my lap, little sister
and we will feel the touch of morning light
ignite
you know you have the right

to let yourself go
and ride the flow
of your emotions
yes baby,
feel the promises
of love's devotions
oh oh oh

feel the truth inside
let it pulse you as you ride
there's nothing wrong
with singing the ecstasy song
there's nothing wrong
to find out where you belong
where you belong
where you belong
oh baby, this is where you belong



(musical interlude)



sleep now, sweet little sister
melting is the only way to fly
kis good night
kiss the sky

Saturday, June 8, 2013

because i love you

chop off all your hair
i will love you
lose your arms and legs
i will love you
whatever you do
whatever happens to me or you
one thing remains true
i will love you

you can lose your mind
i will love you
become deaf and blind
i will love you
whatever you do
whatever happens to me or you
one thing remains true
i will love you

believe in god or not
i will love you
and when you die and rot
i will love you
one dimension or eleven
whatever in hell or heaven
one thing remains true
i will love you

everything is connected
and it always has been
understanding everything
has always been within
beyond science, beyond faith
beyond time, come what may
beyond the end of the final day
one thing remains true
i will love you

what else can i say
it's what i do
always true
i will love you
because i love you

Monday, April 1, 2013

Friday, February 22, 2013

with words (hope and illusion)

to fall in love with words is to fall in love with the writer with the ideas with the feelings they inspire and when i read your words i fall in love and feel lighter with illusion i welcome uncontrolled desire you can stay a fantasy that would be alright with me unless you want to be more reality in my life no one can say what might be if we were closer physically though my gut tells me the friend you could be or a wife it is just an impulse, instinct, thought in my mind but what is real in the end? all i know is that when i read your words i feel i am reading the thoughts of a friend