when you disappear
i question my trust
wonder why i care
all the time alone
like missing rungs on a life ladder
and then you return and tell me to climb
as if all the time alone
doesn't matter
do you just need to have control
it is always on your terms
silence is a lonely noise
do you just like to watch me fall
you treat me like a toy, old toys
a child leaves broken toys behind
but what of broken boys?
all the time alone
between times you appear
i question what love means
and why i should share
all the time alone
like missing rungs on a life ladder
and then you return and tell me to climb
as if all the time alone
doesn't matter
every now and then
i face reality
in all the time alone
i can see
you come back telling me
that i matter to you
i say, really?
but all the time alone
brings more clarity
time alone matters
to me
and in all the time alone
what really doesn't matter to you
is me
