Friday, November 20, 2009

the epic saga of the truth


i was once so sensitive that i'd cry
if i saw anger in someone's eye
everywhere i looked i saw hate and strife
all the cruelty of every life
all i could do was hope it would end
when i found someone to be my friend
but i found no one who did not betray
the words of love they tried to say

and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i think my heart and mind got old
and i think my soul was somehow sold
and i think i was never told
the truth

i was once so considerate that i would
give everything i could just to be good
for kindness was the best feeling i could feel
and giving unconditionally made it real
but i found no one would give the same way
people take advantage and then do not stay
but i found no one who did not betray
the words of trust they tried to say

and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i think my heart and mind got old
and i think my soul was somehow sold
and i think i was never told
the truth

so is this pathos, a poor me song
is this a foolish game dragging me along
i don't want anything from you
unless you can tell me... what is true?

i was once so generous that i'd give
everything away, that's just how i lived
now i find myself alone and feeling so tired
i can barely remember how i was once so inspired
to believe in the human heart
and in love that never ends
now i find myself alone
wondering... where is my friend

and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i think my heart and mind got old
and i think my soul was somehow sold
and i think i was never told
the truth

and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i wonder if it's time to fold or unfold
and i feel like i have been rolled
and i think i was never told
the truth

maybe i'm depressed
maybe i'm a mess
maybe i am just tired of games

maybe this is your song
are you singing along
will you give me your real names?

is this embarrassing
do you feel anything
or have you grown this numb too?

i wonder what you think
i wonder what you drink
i wonder what surprises you

i was once so curious that i'd ask
everyone i met to remove their mask
everywhere i looked i was lies and strife
and i did not believe that was real life
I want to believe in the human heart
and in love that never ends
now i find myself alone
I don't want to pretend
it's ok...

I still find myself alone
wondering... where is my friend

and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i think my heart and mind got old
and i think my soul was somehow sold
and i think i was never told
the truth

and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i wonder if it's time to fold or unfold
and i feel like i have been rolled
and i think i was never told
the truth


Wednesday, November 11, 2009

wondering about you

i wonder if you're too busy
i wonder if you're depressed
i wonder if you're just dizzy
i wonder if you're upset
i wonder if you are hearing
voices telling you to run
or someone demanding you do not
continue what you have begun

i wonder if you are feeling
i wonder if you are numb
i wonder if you just want to
punish yourself for things you've done
i wonder if you are being
careless or insensitive
have you turned off your heart again
or just think you have nothing to give

i am wondering about you
what is real and what is true
what you want and what you do
i am wondering about you

i am wondering about you
what is old and what is new
what inspires you to break through
i am wondering about you

i wonder if you're sleeping
it's the middle of the night
i wonder if you're dreaming
about darkness or light
i wonder if you're sharing
what is real and what is true
i wonder if you're caring
that i am wondering about you

i wonder what shuts you down
i wonder what turns you on
i wonder what remains
i wonder what is gone
i wonder what went on here
and did i miss the signs
i wonder what you wanted
betwixt and between the lines

i am wondering about you
what is real and what is true
what you want and what you do
i am wondering about you

i am wondering about you
what is old and what is new
what inspires you to break through
i am wondering about you

i wonder if you're sleeping
it's the middle of the night
i wonder if you're dreaming
about darkness or light
i wonder if you're sharing
what is real and what is true
i wonder if you're caring
that i am wondering about you

i wonder why i'm caring
and wondering about you