the first time i saw her i knew she was a dream
there was no doubt in my mind that we were a team
every night we won every game we played
every day we kept the promise we made
every time our eyes met we knew
we were one even though we were two
the first time i touched her i knew she was a dream
just as the sun and moon are the same light beam
we reflect each other's energy
existing in perfect symmetry
every doubt and fear was left behind
as if we can read each other's mind
all through time
we all have some secret desires
yours and mine
they ignite our souls fires
when they rhyme
life's purpose can begin
the first time
we knew we had always been
on the same team
we'd always been
each others dream
the first time we kissed we knew we were a dream
and there was no down about what this life could mean
the promise of every fairy tale
the hero we know can never fail
the moment we know our search is done
is the moment we woke to find our dream had begun
i have always dreamed this dream of loving you
and now there was just one thing left to do
the moment we accepted what we always knew
is the moment our dream came true
the first time our eyes met we knew we knew
that was the moment... our dream came true
it's saturday night
it's 10:46
and i am still looking
to get my fix
of love
still there is not enough love
in my life
every night
i lie awake
wondering when
the love i gave
will be equal to
the love i receive
believe
oh i still want to believe
in the love of fairy tales
in the love that never fails
in the love that never dies
in the love that always satisfied
it's saturday night
it's 10:51
i don't want to sleep
i am not done
with love
there is still not enough love
in my night
all my life
i gave it all
took every leap
took every fall
can you give too much
help me understand
unconditional
can it be planned?
or is love just a roll of dice
or is love just the melting of ice
believe
oh i still want to believe
in the love of fairy tales
in the love that never fails
in the love that never dies
in the love that always satisfied
it's saturday night
10:55
and i want you to know
i am alive
and i want to be
satisfied
with love
still there is not enough love
not enough love
not enough love
life gets lonely when friends move away
when the one you live with does not want to stay
from strangers to roommates to partners and friends
it's usually sad when the sharing ends
and you know you'll move on
and you'll find someone new
and sort of replace them
and come out of the blue
but just for a while
there is time to digest
and feel sad and lonely
before what comes next
some slumber in new fantasies
or linger in sweet memories
you can wonder why no one comes knocking at your door
you can wonder why your phone does not ring
you can sit home alone wondering if no one cares
but all that wondering does not change a thing
when you're ready you'll go out and say hello
to old friends and strangers with hope in your eyes
and maybe somebody will come and not go
but whatever happens...
life gets lonely when friends move away
when the one you live with does not want to stay
from strangers to roommates to partners and friends
it's usually sad when the sharing ends
so now there is room in your life and your space
so how do you let the world know
without seeming too vulnerable or desperate
without letting too much of the lonely show
are you ready to go out and say hello?
or do you slumber in new fantasies
or linger in sweet memories
sweet memories
yes you know you'll move on
and you'll find someone new
and sort of replace them
and come out of the blue
but until you do
until you do
until you do
life gets lonely when friends move away
when the one you live with does not want to stay
from strangers to roommates to partners and friends
it's usually sad when the sharing ends
listening to the words of a song
from a movie that was a play will someone care
sung by the members of a life support group
for people dying of aids
suddenly i am aware
that everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
we're all asking will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass will i lose my dignity
will someone care
it may be more obvious with cancer or aids
but we all share the same fear
of being alone at the end
old age is the final card that is played
if none of the others do it,
old age will, my friend
for everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
we're all asking will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass will i lose my dignity
will someone care
sometimes i want to end it all while i can
rather than be alone when i'm helpless at the end
sometimes i want to end it all, do you understand?
no one answers when i ask who will be the friend?
we're all asking will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass will i lose my dignity
will someone care
for everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
heard you went camping with friends
and your new lover, building your new life
doesn't mean we have to end
i can love you and your new wife
all that really matters
is what we're feeling
the memories
alive in the moment
all that really matters
is what we're sharing
how much we care
alive in the moment
alive in the moment
alive in the moment
the moment
the moment
and i wish i was sleeping
under the stars
with you
tonight
and i wish we were speaking
under the stars
together
tonight
and i look up at the sky
and you look up at the sky
and no matter where we are
we see the same stars
we are together in our hearts
together in our minds
no matter where we are
we can find
we are living in the moment
under the stars
together
each night
we are living in the moment
under the stars
wherever
we're right
bonded by our love
our trust, our bond never ends
believing in each other
we'll always be friends
so here i am am sleeping
under the stars
with you
tonight
our hearts are still speaking
under the stars
together
tonight
as i look up at the sky
and you look up at the sky
no matter where we are
we see the same stars
we are together in our hearts
together in our minds
no matter where we are
we can find
we are living in the moment
under the stars
together
each night
we are living in the moment
under the stars
wherever
we're right
wherever we are
we are under the stars
together
each night
living in the moment
under the stars
wherever
alright
living in the moment
under the stars
together
tonight
every day i wonder
are you too busy for me
would i be intruding if
i reach out to you tonight
i just want to do right
every day i wonder
are you thinking of me
would i be welcome if
i called you up tonight
would it be alright
would i hear it in your voice
would i be able to tell
if your eyes were rolling
or if you were smiling
could you be wondering to
if i am thinking of you
and just looking at your phone
wondering if i am home
do you know that you need never feel lonely
that i am always willing to be here for you
do you know that you are still the only one
who made my fondest dream of love come true
i wonder if you ever really knew
and i wonder if you wonder too
every day i wonder
are you too busy for me
would i be intruding if
i reach out to you tonight
i just want to do right
every day i wonder
are you thinking of me
would i be welcome if
i called you up tonight
would it be alright
listening to your voice kept my heart alive
in the darkest moments when love betrayed trust
i don’t know how to explain how much you mean to me
and make it make sense, since we’ve never met
but have you ever read a book you belonged in?
have you ever heard a song your soul wrote to you?
was there ever a story, just words to your eyes
that became an epic monument in your mind?
listening to your voice takes me to a good place
a feeling that you understand something no one else could
and if that is just fantasy then please let me dream
for there is no reason to end something this good
when i read your words i feel like i belong there
when i heard you sing i feel like i should sing too
can we write a story, just words for our eyes
that becomes an epic monument in our minds?
would that be just kept in my imagination
or can you feel in these words some familiar sensation
maybe you see in me what i see in you
what stops us from knowing something real, something true
just tell me what you want me to do
if nothing else, i wish you knew
listening to your voice kept my heart alive
in the darkest moments when love betrayed trust
i don’t know how to explain how much you mean to me
and make it make sense, since we’ve never met
he asked, ” Is this real? Or has this been happening inside my head?
he said, ” Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry,
but why on earth should that mean it is not real?”
have you ever read a book you belonged in?
have you ever heard a song your soul wrote to you?
was there ever a story, just words to your eyes
that became an epic monument in your mind?
and i hope you see
you are that book
you are that song
you are that story
the epic monument
for me
listening to the words of a song
from a movie that was a play will someone care
sung by the members of a life support group
for people dying of aids
suddenly i am aware
that everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
we're all asking will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
when old age ails me
when i must depend on someone else
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass will i lose my dignity
will someone care
it may be more obvious with cancer or aids
but we all share the same fear
of being alone at the end
old age is the final card that is played
if none of the others do it,
old age will, my friend
for everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
we're all asking will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
when old age ails me
when i must depend on someone else
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass will i lose my dignity
will someone care
sometimes i want to end it all while i can
rather than be alone when i'm helpless at the end
sometimes i want to end it all, do you understand?
no one answers when i ask who will be the friend?
we're all asking will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
when old age ails me
when i must depend on someone else
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass will i lose my dignity
will someone care
for everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
I've got a strange relationship with myself
I trust myself unconditionally
so I let myself get in all sorts of trouble
and far from the one I know as me
it must be confusing to anyone who looks
at my life with any serious concern
but there are no worries, just missing pieces
and still so much more to learn
still so much more to learn
why don't we give the next page of my life a turn
I’ve got to get a handle on my impulses today
I’m letting imbalanced lusts get carried away
and I have not been writing to myself enough lately
letting distractions dilute deeper desires in me
looking for connections
comments messages and tweets
looking for attention
looking for someone who wants to meet
internet diversions
wanting to believe I’m finding friends
just wishing and hoping
the long term loneliness ends
but I keep so busy that I don’t
remember to keep in touch with myself
I wonder if you understand
I don’t let myself feel as lonely as I am
I’ve got to get back to taking care of myself
not just the momentary impulses
but the dreams long stashed up on a shelf
I’ve got to get back to the depths deep inside
not just the simple happy daily smiles
but the passions that have been so long denied
looking for connections
but too busy to see
looking for attention
but not giving enough attention to me
internet diversions
watching tv and playing games
just wishing and hoping
somebody will share more than names
but I keep so busy that I don’t
remember to keep in touch with myself
I wonder if you understand
I don’t let myself feel as lonely as I am
I don’t want to feel the desperation
I don’t want to settle for one night stands
I don’t want to choose someone just to quell the loneliness
I wonder if anyone understands
I’ve got to get a handle on my business today
I’m letting work and light play get carried away
and I have not been writing to myself enough lately
letting distractions dilute deeper desires in me
I must return to the deeper desires in me
must return to the deeper desires in me
must return to the deeper desires in me
must return to the deeper desires in me
if i fantasize about you every night
would you tell me it is wrong or it's alright?
if i promise all my heart and soul to you
would you tell me it's a dream that can't come true?
if i prayed to every god to hold your hand
would you tell me that you don't undestand?
if i lived my life to make your dreams come true
would you tell me i'm a fool - i wish i knew
and if i reached out to touch you
what would you do?
just a look in your eyes
has me mesmerized
just the way that you smile
melts me - is it your style?
just the way that you walk
just the way that you talk
just the way that you are
am i going too far?
and if i never actually get you to notice me
if this love i feel remains only a fantasy
if all that comes of this is the song i sing
i will still give you everything
for the dream of you and the hope you bring
makes me feel like a king
and if this kingom is all in my mind
in this life
it is . . .
all i need to find
the look in your eyes
all i need to find
just the way that you smile
all i need to find
just the way that you walk
all i need to find
just the way that you talk
all i need to find
just the way that you are
all i need to find
all i need to do
to make all my dreams come true
is dream
of you
to make all my dreams come true
all i need to find
is you
how I would love to get up your skirt
and take you to where nothing can hurt
where rockets go off and sirens wail
and you feel like you could never fail
in that moment of bliss
when the four lips kiss
and the bodies entwine
how I wish you were mine
(I will make you mine)
will you let me in
will you let me in
will you let me in
portishead sings glory box
and love begins
how I would love to dive into your eyes
and find out where the whole truth lies
in that moment when nothing can hide
and you let love reach you deep inside
in that moment of high
when you could just die
and you find you live
with so much to give
(how I want to give)
will you let me give
will you let me give
will you let me give
if you looked at me i would let you in
and ask you to tell me where to begin
to show you i care and want to be your friend
that's the kind of love that has no end
if you kissed me i would not hide my surprise
i would ask you who lives behind your eyes
what does your heart want most in this life
and your dreams, can we wake them tonight
found your comment and came to see
who you might be
and what you might inspire in me
i wish you the world, whatever you want
and all you want to be
that's all for now, i'll take my leave
you know where to find me
if you came to my door i would let you in
with hope something beautiful could begin
take your comfort, trust your instincts now
and be yourself as only you know how
there was a time I was so adored
and I never meant to hurt anyone
there were people who knew my heart
where all there is is love and fun
there were people I trusted unconditionally
and people who trusted me
but I wanted too much and they’re gone
I pushed them away with my carrying on
cuz the first lesson I learn in life
was that people do not stick around
abandonment became
a self-fulfilled prophesy
and now my heart beat is a lonely sound
I wish I knew better back then
before I pushed away all my friends
I wish I didn’t test how much they loved me
just to prove everybody pretends
I wish I knew how to compromise
before I gave into all the lies
I wish I didn’t push everybody away
just to prove no one would stay
doesn’t anybody understand
I will die for love
and I have more than once in this life
won’t somebody hold my hand
to live for love
where is my long lost wife
I sit awake alone at night
writing these songs
dreaming of loving once again
do I hold on too tight
do I let go too fast
I wish I knew better now
than I did then
now I wonder did you ever feel as loved
as when you let me love you
was it too much or not enough
will I ever know what is true
now I wonder if you ever believe i
would love you beyond the day I die
here I am in a place with no time
still loving you – that is my crime
doesn’t anybody understand
I will die for love
and I have more than once in this life
won’t somebody hold my hand
to live for love
where is my long lost wife
I sit awake alone at night
writing these songs
dreaming of loving once again
do I hold on too tight
do I let go too fast
I wish I knew better now
than I did then
i wonder if you're too busy
i wonder if you're depressed
i wonder if you're just dizzy
i wonder if you're upset
i wonder if you are hearing
voices telling you to run
or someone demanding you do not
continue what you have begun
i wonder if you are feeling
i wonder if you are numb
i wonder if you just want to
punish yourself for things you've done
i wonder if you are being
careless or insensitive
have you turned off your heart again
or just think you have nothing to give
i am wondering about you
what is real and what is true
what you want and what you do
i am wondering about you
i am wondering about you
what is old and what is new
what inspires you to break through
i am wondering about you
i wonder if you're sleeping
it's the middle of the night
i wonder if you're dreaming
about darkness or light
i wonder if you're sharing
what is real and what is true
i wonder if you're caring
that i am wondering about you
i wonder what shuts you down
i wonder what turns you on
i wonder what remains
i wonder what is gone
i wonder what went on here
and did i miss the signs
i wonder what you wanted
betwixt and between the lines
i am wondering about you
what is real and what is true
what you want and what you do
i am wondering about you
i am wondering about you
what is old and what is new
what inspires you to break through
i am wondering about you
i wonder if you're sleeping
it's the middle of the night
i wonder if you're dreaming
about darkness or light
i wonder if you're sharing
what is real and what is true
i wonder if you're caring
that i am wondering about you
1993 we met in correspondence she knew exactly what to write to get into my heart and mind
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
1995 she confessed her love for me she told me her whole life was a lie she needed me so she could fly
love is forever love always grows this is the most precious dream I know
1997 two years of bliss and pain I gave her control of my brain she tried to make me go insane
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
1999 I gave her everything I could from far away I waited for her to do what she said she would
all the while she was begging me to hang on all the while she was asking for everything I could give all the while she was keeping me living in yesterday using the power I gave her to keep me so far away
1999 she begged me to hold on wait for me, she said, and I did even when she was gone
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
I never really knew what was going on all I knew was that my heart was gone she begged me to leave it in her hands is there anyone who understands?
2001 I crawled back to where I came from finding myself lost and broken half waiting half trying to understand what happened and how to begin again without my heart, how to begin again
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
2004 a correspondence, first time in three years I felt my anger and pain dissolve in precious tears I asked her why she actualized my greatest fear I asked her to return my heart and mind if she would not come here her silence fell upon me once again (I asked, why won’t you share?) her indecision rose like a wall once again (I asked, why don’’t you care?) only to find her that she would once again… disappear
I thought my heart was open I thought my doors were open I thought I was ready for love so why am I alone
I thought that I was free and I thought that I was me and I thought I was over the past I though that I had known
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
2008 again a few words from so far away she confessed she used me, what else was there to say was I the fool still waiting for her to return my heart? and now, am I free?... where and how do I start?
she said she married another and he gave her a child she moved on but she still will not let go there is no room in her life for me today but she will not let go is it because I know
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
love is forever the best I’ve got how it can end is something I still do not know
all the while she was begging me to hang on all the while she was asking for everything I could give all the while she was keeping me living in yesterday using the power I gave her to keep me so far away
I never really knew what was going on all I knew was that my heart was gone she begged me to leave it in her hands is there anyone who understands?
she still keeps the best of me under her lock and key even though she started over long ago had another child with another man in 1999, oh and yet she still will not return the things that keep me hanging on so what am I to do when my heart and mind are gone? this is the only way I know to carry on
love is forever no matter what love is still the most precious dream I know
I am so far from the person I used to be I used to sing I used to dance I used to love passion, romance I used to run I used to fly I used to dream my mind could touch the sky I used to feel the human touch I used to want to be in love too much
how far I fell to hear love’s calling could it be that I am still falling
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
if you don’t like to be touched, keep your distance i have learned how to feel like that but it is not really me if you don’t like to be hugged, keep your distance i have learned how to keep mine, but that is not really me
i want to find some one who will remind me who i am how i feel and how i love to be felt i want to find someone who can believe and understand how true love makes a heart melt can your mind melt can your body melt when was the last time you felt how you love to be felt
if you don’t like to be touched, keep your distance i have learned to be afraid but that is not really me if you don’t like to be loved, keep your distance i have learned how to be numb, but that is not really me
i know why i am down deep inside i know i’ve learned how to run and hide i’ve learned how to pretend i’ve died but there is so much more denied and sharing will remind me sharing will make it real again sharing will help me find me sharing will let me feel again sharing’s the answer sharing is what life’s about so much has been buried deep inside sharing will let it back out
i want to find some one who can really share how it feels to be in love and be felt i want to find someone who can believe and understand how true love makes a heart melt can your mind melt can your body melt when was the last time you felt how you love to be felt
when you’re sharing life is sharing i want to be sharing
and sharing will remind you sharing will make it real again sharing will help you find you sharing will let you feel again sharing’s the answer sharing is what life’s about so much has been buried deep inside sharing will let it back out
you say you want me to call but you don't like talking on the phone you like your talking face to face i wonder, how long have you been on your own you hand me your number as i leave and encourage me to care for myself now what am i supposed to make of that oh, what's that book up on your shelf?
is it pride and prejudice or is it war and peace maybe tale of two cities or the golden fleece is it something unique someone i never heard of oh... or are you writing something new and does it take two for the love or words or are we gonna fall in love
you say you want me to call well haven’t been asked for so long i like the smile on your face i wonder, what would you do with your own song you reach out to hug me as i leave i think i’m not sure i remember how i was feeling you pressed up against me oh what's that book your reading now?
is it the road less traveled or is it custer’s last stand quixote de la mancha alice in wonderland is it something brand new will it fit us like a glove oh... should i act like i have no clue or move like i do for the love or words does the answer come from above
what book do you read when you are most alone what book can take you home what book do you read when you’re most afraid have you ever felt saved by words or music or anything what book lives inside your heart i want to know your story so where shall we start
you say you want me to call but you don't like talking on the phone you like your talking face to face i wonder, how long have you been alone you give me a smile as i leave makes me want to take a good look at myself now what am i supposed to make of that oh, what's that book up on your shelf?
lost in the revelry a lonely voice sighs counting the promises that have turned into lies and in the morning light an innocent cries picking up the pieces of life's greatest prize
and where are the friends we used to know where is the caring all of the love, where did it go where is the sharing
once we could trust each other like sisters and brothers and now we hide behind locked doors
if i give you mine tonight could i ask for yours?
lost in the cacophony a lonely heart beats counting the moments passing as little defeats living a life alone a social life dies we are social beings is this a surprise?
so where are the friends we used to know where is the caring ` all of the love, where did it go where is the sharing
once we could trust each other like sisters and brothers and now we hide behind locked doors
if i give you mine tonight could i ask for yours?
are there still dreamers dreaming the dreams that created fairy tales? are there still poets imagining a love that never fails? are there still children sharing pretending without a world of fears? are there still people living happily ever after anywhere?
lost in the industry a lonely hand asks will anyone hold me today between all the tasks and in the dark of night loneliness on the rise counting the years passing wondering why
we share less and less, and then we die why oh why oh why why don't we learn to share more before we die? can we learn to share more before we die?
oh where are the friends we used to know where is the caring ` all of the love, where did it go where is the sharing
once we could trust each other like sisters and brothers and now we hide behind locked doors
