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one look at your photo and all i could think was
may i please see more of you?
the turn on was instant, exciting and melting
there was just one thing to do
you've become the dream i want to come true
you've become the one i want to come to
you've become the only dream i want to dream of
you've become the image... of my love
and i want you to be
more than a fantasy
i want you to be
the one in reality
i want you to see
all there is to me
please say it could be
please come to me
one look at your face and i knew it was you
the one i've i've always dreamed of
the turn on was magic, so wondrous and precious
you've come to define my love
you've become the dream i want to come true
you've become the one i want to come to
you've become the only dream i want to dream of
you've become the image... of my love
and i want you to be
more than a fantasy
i want you to be
the one in reality
i want you to see
all there is to me
please say it could be
please come to me
one look and...
and i want you to be
more than a fantasy
i want you to be
the one in reality
i want you to see
all there is to me
please say it could be
please come to me
. . .
the first time i saw her i knew she was a dream
there was no doubt in my mind that we were a team
every night we won every game we played
every day we kept the promise we made
every time our eyes met we knew
we were one even though we were two
the first time i touched her i knew she was a dream
just as the sun and moon are the same light beam
we reflect each other's energy
existing in perfect symmetry
every doubt and fear was left behind
as if we can read each other's mind
all through time
we all have some secret desires
yours and mine
they ignite our souls fires
when they rhyme
life's purpose can begin
the first time
we knew we had always been
on the same team
we'd always been
each others dream
the first time we kissed we knew we were a dream
and there was no down about what this life could mean
the promise of every fairy tale
the hero we know can never fail
the moment we know our search is done
is the moment we woke to find our dream had begun
i have always dreamed this dream of loving you
and now there was just one thing left to do
the moment we accepted what we always knew
is the moment our dream came true
the first time our eyes met we knew we knew
that was the moment... our dream came true
listening to the words of a song
from a movie that was a play
will someone care
sung by the members of a life support group
for people dying of aids
suddenly i am aware
that everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
we're all asking
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
it may be more obvious with cancer or aids
but we all share the same fear
of being alone at the end
old age is the final card that is played
if none of the others do it,
old age will, my friend
for everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
we're all asking
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
sometimes i want to end it all while i can
rather than be alone when i'm helpless at the end
sometimes i want to end it all, do you understand?
no one answers when i ask who will be the friend?
we're all asking
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
for everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
heard you went camping with friends
and your new lover, building your new life
doesn't mean we have to end
i can love you and your new wife
all that really matters
is what we're feeling
the memories
alive in the moment
all that really matters
is what we're sharing
how much we care
alive in the moment
alive in the moment
alive in the moment
the moment
the moment
and i wish i was sleeping
under the stars
with you
tonight
and i wish we were speaking
under the stars
together
tonight
and i look up at the sky
and you look up at the sky
and no matter where we are
we see the same stars
we are together in our hearts
together in our minds
no matter where we are
we can find
we are living in the moment
under the stars
together
each night
we are living in the moment
under the stars
wherever
we're right
bonded by our love
our trust, our bond never ends
believing in each other
we'll always be friends
so here i am am sleeping
under the stars
with you
tonight
our hearts are still speaking
under the stars
together
tonight
as i look up at the sky
and you look up at the sky
no matter where we are
we see the same stars
we are together in our hearts
together in our minds
no matter where we are
we can find
we are living in the moment
under the stars
together
each night
we are living in the moment
under the stars
wherever
we're right
wherever we are
we are under the stars
together
each night
living in the moment
under the stars
wherever
alright
living in the moment
under the stars
together
tonight
every day i wonder
are you too busy for me
would i be intruding if
i reach out to you tonight
i just want to do right
every day i wonder
are you thinking of me
would i be welcome if
i called you up tonight
would it be alright
would i hear it in your voice
would i be able to tell
if your eyes were rolling
or if you were smiling
could you be wondering to
if i am thinking of you
and just looking at your phone
wondering if i am home
do you know that you need never feel lonely
that i am always willing to be here for you
do you know that you are still the only one
who made my fondest dream of love come true
i wonder if you ever really knew
and i wonder if you wonder too
every day i wonder
are you too busy for me
would i be intruding if
i reach out to you tonight
i just want to do right
every day i wonder
are you thinking of me
would i be welcome if
i called you up tonight
would it be alright
i wonder
would it be alright
listening to your voice kept my heart alive
in the darkest moments when love betrayed trust
i don’t know how to explain how much you mean to me
and make it make sense, since we’ve never met
but have you ever read a book you belonged in?
have you ever heard a song your soul wrote to you?
was there ever a story, just words to your eyes
that became an epic monument in your mind?
listening to your voice takes me to a good place
a feeling that you understand something no one else could
and if that is just fantasy then please let me dream
for there is no reason to end something this good
when i read your words i feel like i belong there
when i heard you sing i feel like i should sing too
can we write a story, just words for our eyes
that becomes an epic monument in our minds?
would that be just kept in my imagination
or can you feel in these words some familiar sensation
maybe you see in me what i see in you
what stops us from knowing something real, something true
just tell me what you want me to do
if nothing else, i wish you knew
listening to your voice kept my heart alive
in the darkest moments when love betrayed trust
i don’t know how to explain how much you mean to me
and make it make sense, since we’ve never met
he asked,
” Is this real? Or has this been happening inside my head?
he said,
” Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry,
but why on earth should that mean it is not real?”
have you ever read a book you belonged in?
have you ever heard a song your soul wrote to you?
was there ever a story, just words to your eyes
that became an epic monument in your mind?
and i hope you see
you are that book
you are that song
you are that story
the epic monument
for me
listening to the words of a song
from a movie that was a play
will someone care
sung by the members of a life support group
for people dying of aids
suddenly i am aware
that everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
we're all asking
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
when old age ails me
when i must depend on someone else
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
it may be more obvious with cancer or aids
but we all share the same fear
of being alone at the end
old age is the final card that is played
if none of the others do it,
old age will, my friend
for everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
we're all asking
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
when old age ails me
when i must depend on someone else
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
sometimes i want to end it all while i can
rather than be alone when i'm helpless at the end
sometimes i want to end it all, do you understand?
no one answers when i ask who will be the friend?
we're all asking
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
when old age ails me
when i must depend on someone else
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
for everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
I've got a strange relationship with myself
I trust myself unconditionally
so I let myself get in all sorts of trouble
and far from the one I know as me
it must be confusing to anyone who looks
at my life with any serious concern
but there are no worries, just missing pieces
and still so much more to learn
still so much more to learn
why don't we give the next page of my life a turn
I’ve got to get a handle on my impulses today
I’m letting imbalanced lusts get carried away
and I have not been writing to myself enough lately
letting distractions dilute deeper desires in me
looking for connections
comments messages and tweets
looking for attention
looking for someone who wants to meet
internet diversions
wanting to believe I’m finding friends
just wishing and hoping
the long term loneliness ends
but I keep so busy that I don’t
remember to keep in touch with myself
I wonder if you understand
I don’t let myself feel as lonely as I am
I’ve got to get back to taking care of myself
not just the momentary impulses
but the dreams long stashed up on a shelf
I’ve got to get back to the depths deep inside
not just the simple happy daily smiles
but the passions that have been so long denied
looking for connections
but too busy to see
looking for attention
but not giving enough attention to me
internet diversions
watching tv and playing games
just wishing and hoping
somebody will share more than names
but I keep so busy that I don’t
remember to keep in touch with myself
I wonder if you understand
I don’t let myself feel as lonely as I am
I don’t want to feel the desperation
I don’t want to settle for one night stands
I don’t want to choose someone just to quell the loneliness
I wonder if anyone understands
I’ve got to get a handle on my business today
I’m letting work and light play get carried away
and I have not been writing to myself enough lately
letting distractions dilute deeper desires in me
I must return to the deeper desires in me
must return to the deeper desires in me
must return to the deeper desires in me
must return to the deeper desires in me
you called me the love of your life
but never heard my heart was not yours
were you hoping i would fall for you
that is not what falling in love is for
it either happens or it does not
and i told you it did not for me
you told me that you had no choice
your love for me ignored my words
my selfishness ignored your voice
our choices create our lot
i wish i never let it go so far
for now i do not know where you are
i miss how much you were devoted to me
did my leaving set you free?
when we met you were pregnant with someone’s child
i never knew who he was or why he was not around
i’m not sure why i didn’t ask and now i wonder why
was i just happy you needed me and not the other guy?
when we met you were grieving, your father just died
you still lived at home, never on your own, eyes wide
just a child with a child and i took you in and shared my life
but the one thing i never wanted you to be was my wife
i tried to be kind, was i too kind?...
or is kindness cruel in the end?
you wanted me to fall in love
i wanted a best friend
you wanted a lover
i wanted a mother
too late we discovered
the two do not mix
how do people measure
what’s comfort or pleasure
when you break a treasure
maybe there is no fix
we never really saw eye to eye
maybe you chose the wrong guy
i wish i never let it go so far
for now i do not know where you are
i miss how much you were devoted to me
did my leaving set you free?
i bought you a house, then i let it go
if you paid it off it is worth five times what we paid
you wanted a spouse, i wanted a show
we were both victims of the game we played
and did we let money get in the way?
you called me the love of your life
but never heard my heart was not yours
were you hoping i would fall for you
that is not what falling in love is for
it either happens or it does not
and i told you it did not for me
you told me that you had no choice
your love for me ignored my words
my selfishness ignored your voice
our choices create our lot
i wish i never let it go so far
for now i do not know where you are
i miss how much you were devoted to me
did my leaving set you free?
if i fantasize about you every night
would you tell me it is wrong or it's alright?
if i promise all my heart and soul to you
would you tell me it's a dream that can't come true?
if i prayed to every god to hold your hand
would you tell me that you don't undestand?
if i lived my life to make your dreams come true
would you tell me i'm a fool - i wish i knew
and if i reached out to touch you
what would you do?
just a look in your eyes
has me mesmerized
just the way that you smile
melts me - is it your style?
just the way that you walk
just the way that you talk
just the way that you are
am i going too far?
and if i never actually get you to notice me
if this love i feel remains only a fantasy
if all that comes of this is the song i sing
i will still give you everything
for the dream of you and the hope you bring
makes me feel like a king
and if this kingom is all in my mind
in this life
it is . . .
all i need to find
the look in your eyes
all i need to find
just the way that you smile
all i need to find
just the way that you walk
all i need to find
just the way that you talk
all i need to find
just the way that you are
all i need to find
all i need to do
to make all my dreams come true
is dream
of you
to make all my dreams come true
all i need to find
is you
how I would love to get up your skirt
and take you to where nothing can hurt
where rockets go off and sirens wail
and you feel like you could never fail
in that moment of bliss
when the four lips kiss
and the bodies entwine
how I wish you were mine
(I will make you mine)
will you let me in
will you let me in
will you let me in
portishead sings glory box
and love begins
how I would love to dive into your eyes
and find out where the whole truth lies
in that moment when nothing can hide
and you let love reach you deep inside
in that moment of high
when you could just die
and you find you live
with so much to give
(how I want to give)
will you let me give
will you let me give
will you let me give
portishead sings glory box
and love lives
two sides of love
if you looked at me i would let you in
and ask you to tell me where to begin
to show you i care and want to be your friend
that's the kind of love that has no end
if you kissed me i would not hide my surprise
i would ask you who lives behind your eyes
what does your heart want most in this life
and your dreams, can we wake them tonight
found your comment and came to see
who you might be
and what you might inspire in me
i wish you the world, whatever you want
and all you want to be
that's all for now, i'll take my leave
you know where to find me
if you came to my door i would let you in
with hope something beautiful could begin
take your comfort, trust your instincts now
and be yourself as only you know how
i wonder if you're too busy
i wonder if you're depressed
i wonder if you're just dizzy
i wonder if you're upset
i wonder if you are hearing
voices telling you to run
or someone demanding you do not
continue what you have begun
i wonder if you are feeling
i wonder if you are numb
i wonder if you just want to
punish yourself for things you've done
i wonder if you are being
careless or insensitive
have you turned off your heart again
or just think you have nothing to give
i am wondering about you
what is real and what is true
what you want and what you do
i am wondering about you
i am wondering about you
what is old and what is new
what inspires you to break through
i am wondering about you
i wonder if you're sleeping
it's the middle of the night
i wonder if you're dreaming
about darkness or light
i wonder if you're sharing
what is real and what is true
i wonder if you're caring
that i am wondering about you
i wonder what shuts you down
i wonder what turns you on
i wonder what remains
i wonder what is gone
i wonder what went on here
and did i miss the signs
i wonder what you wanted
betwixt and between the lines
i am wondering about you
what is real and what is true
what you want and what you do
i am wondering about you
i am wondering about you
what is old and what is new
what inspires you to break through
i am wondering about you
i wonder if you're sleeping
it's the middle of the night
i wonder if you're dreaming
about darkness or light
i wonder if you're sharing
what is real and what is true
i wonder if you're caring
that i am wondering about you
i wonder why i'm caring
and wondering about you
1993 we met in correspondence
she knew exactly what to write
to get into my heart and mind
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
1995 she confessed her love for me
she told me her whole life was a lie
she needed me so she could fly
love is forever
love always grows
this is the most
precious dream I know
1997 two years of bliss and pain
I gave her control of my brain
she tried to make me go insane
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
1999 I gave her everything I could
from far away I waited for her
to do what she said she would
all the while she was begging me to hang on
all the while she was asking for everything I could give
all the while she was keeping me living in yesterday
using the power I gave her to keep me so far away
1999 she begged me to hold on
wait for me, she said, and I did
even when she was gone
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
I never really knew what was going on
all I knew was that my heart was gone
she begged me to leave it in her hands
is there anyone who understands?
2001 I crawled back to where I came from
finding myself lost and broken
half waiting half trying to understand
what happened and how to begin again
without my heart, how to begin again
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
2004 a correspondence, first time in three years
I felt my anger and pain dissolve in precious tears
I asked her why she actualized my greatest fear
I asked her to return my heart and mind if she would not come here
her silence fell upon me once again (I asked, why won’t you share?)
her indecision rose like a wall once again (I asked, why don’’t you care?)
only to find her that she would once again… disappear
I thought my heart was open
I thought my doors were open
I thought I was ready for love
so why am I alone
I thought that I was free and
I thought that I was me and
I thought I was over the past
I though that I had known
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
2008 again a few words from so far away
she confessed she used me, what else was there to say
was I the fool still waiting for her to return my heart?
and now, am I free?... where and how do I start?
she said she married another and he gave her a child
she moved on but she still will not let go
there is no room in her life for me today
but she will not let go
is it because I know
love is forever
no matter what
this is the most
precious dream I know
love is forever
the best I’ve got
how it can end is something
I still do not know
all the while she was begging me to hang on
all the while she was asking for everything I could give
all the while she was keeping me living in yesterday
using the power I gave her to keep me so far away
I never really knew what was going on
all I knew was that my heart was gone
she begged me to leave it in her hands
is there anyone who understands?
she still keeps the best of me
under her lock and key
even though she started over long ago
had another child with another man in 1999, oh
and yet she still will not return the things that keep me hanging on
so what am I to do when my heart and mind are gone?
this is the only way I know to carry on
love is forever
no matter what
love is still the most
precious dream I know
all the time alone
when you disappear
i question my trust
wonder why i care
all the time alone
like missing rungs on a life ladder
and then you return and tell me to climb
as if all the time alone
doesn't matter
do you just need to have control
it is always on your terms
silence is a lonely noise
do you just like to watch me fall
you treat me like a toy, old toys
a child leaves broken toys behind
but what of broken boys?
all the time alone
between times you appear
i question what love means
and why i should share
all the time alone
like missing rungs on a life ladder
and then you return and tell me to climb
as if all the time alone
doesn't matter
every now and then
i face reality
in all the time alone
i can see
you come back telling me
that i matter to you
i say, really?
but all the time alone
brings more clarity
time alone matters
to me
and in all the time alone
what really doesn't matter to you
is me
if you don’t like to be touched, keep your distance
i have learned how to feel like that but it is not really me
if you don’t like to be hugged, keep your distance
i have learned how to keep mine, but that is not really me
i want to find some one who will remind me who i am
how i feel and how i love to be felt
i want to find someone who can believe and understand
how true love makes a heart melt
can your mind melt
can your body melt
when was the last time you felt
how you love to be felt
if you don’t like to be touched, keep your distance
i have learned to be afraid but that is not really me
if you don’t like to be loved, keep your distance
i have learned how to be numb, but that is not really me
i know why i am down deep inside
i know i’ve learned how to run and hide
i’ve learned how to pretend i’ve died
but there is so much more denied
and sharing will remind me
sharing will make it real again
sharing will help me find me
sharing will let me feel again
sharing’s the answer
sharing is what life’s about
so much has been buried deep inside
sharing will let it back out
i want to find some one who can really share
how it feels to be in love and be felt
i want to find someone who can believe and understand
how true love makes a heart melt
can your mind melt
can your body melt
when was the last time you felt
how you love to be felt
when you’re sharing
life is sharing
i want to be sharing
and sharing will remind you
sharing will make it real again
sharing will help you find you
sharing will let you feel again
sharing’s the answer
sharing is what life’s about
so much has been buried deep inside
sharing will let it back out
girl from texas
how you move me
your vibrations
pass right through me
and they take me
somewhere higher
there’s no telling
what
you could inspire
girl from texas
can i touch you
i’ll be gentle
i’ll be kind
i’ll be loving
as you guide me
through your body
in
to your mind
girl from texas
i embrace you
i adore you
loveliness
from this distance
i will love you
as you wish
and
as you are
girl from texas
you excite me
see me tremble
in your view
above all else
i’ll respect you
what you say is
what
i will do
girl from texas
know that this is
real and true
girl from texas
may you kiss this
let it through
girl from texas
please don’t miss this
feel it too
girl from texas
what your bliss is
i will do
girl from texas
i confess this
i love you
you say you want me to call
but you don't like talking on the phone
you like your talking face to face i wonder,
how long have you been on your own
you hand me your number as i leave
and encourage me to care for myself
now what am i supposed to make of that oh,
what's that book up on your shelf?
is it pride and prejudice
or is it war and peace
maybe tale of two cities
or the golden fleece
is it something unique
someone i never heard of
oh...
or are you writing something new
and does it take two
for the love or words
or are we gonna fall in love
you say you want me to call
well haven’t been asked for so long
i like the smile on your face i wonder,
what would you do with your own song
you reach out to hug me as i leave
i think i’m not sure i remember how
i was feeling you pressed up against me oh
what's that book your reading now?
is it the road less traveled
or is it custer’s last stand
quixote de la mancha
alice in wonderland
is it something brand new
will it fit us like a glove
oh...
should i act like i have no clue
or move like i do
for the love or words
does the answer come from above
what book do you read when you are most alone
what book can take you home
what book do you read when you’re most afraid
have you ever felt saved
by words or music or anything
what book lives inside your heart
i want to know your story
so where shall we start
you say you want me to call
but you don't like talking on the phone
you like your talking face to face i wonder,
how long have you been alone
you give me a smile as i leave
makes me want to take a good look at myself
now what am i supposed to make of that oh,
what's that book up on your shelf?
she has this way of smiling
that asks you to want her
she's got this way of standing
that asks you to hold her
she's got this way of sitting
that asks you to come closer
she's got this way of moving
that makes you hungry for her
and you want to know more
and you want to see more
you want to lift her veil and her skirt
unabashed and embarassed
you're caught with your pants down
but wanting her just makes you hurt
you've got to do something
she's upset your peace
you've got to do something
to find some release
your passion is bursting
at the seems
desire has you humble
she fills all your dreams
just something about her
no words can explain
but if you don't have her
you will go insane
your hunger for her
is eating your brain
each moment without her
is more and more pain
it's becoming an obsession
in just a little while
you have become addicted
to her smile
she has this way of smiling
that asks you to want her
she's got this way of standing
that asks you to hold her
she's got this way of sitting
that asks you to come closer
she's got this way of moving
that makes you hungry for her
and all you want to do now
is tell her you adore her
and all you want to do now
is anything for her
you better tell her soon fool
you can't ignore her
stalling and shuffling
will only bore her
you'll lose if you don't try
so knock on her door
and tell her you love her
that's what you're made for
she has a dog named mikey and said
mikey loves people
or was it
mikey loves everybody
mikey is special
so mikey rolled over and got a belly rub
and she didn't linger
but i
didn't get the finger
so maybe she'll talk to me again
who knows
we might see each other at the mailboxes
she lives in the building next door
i think
somewhere on the first floor
i think
and i would have liked to see her some more
i think
but i was playing with mikey
so i don't know what she looks like
except from behind
and she had a nice behind
i think
she had a dog named mikey and said
mikey loves people
or as it
mikey loves everybody
mikey is special
they were standing at the mailboxes
and i drove right by her
but i
spun a little tire
backed up, turned around, check the mail
who knows
she might be the woman of my dreams
she waited until i got there
i think
and let mikey show i can care
i think
and i would have liked to see her more clearly
i think
but i was playing with mikey
so i don't know what she looks like
except from afar
when i past her in my car
i think
she had a dog named mikey and said
mikey loves people
or as it
mikey loves everybody
and all i wanted to be was
special
everybody has somebody special
all i want to be is
special
like mikey
