the first time i saw her i knew she was a dream
there was no doubt in my mind that we were a team
every night we won every game we played
every day we kept the promise we made
every time our eyes met we knew
we were one even though we were two
the first time i touched her i knew she was a dream
just as the sun and moon are the same light beam
we reflect each other's energy
existing in perfect symmetry
every doubt and fear was left behind
as if we can read each other's mind
all through time
we all have some secret desires
yours and mine
they ignite our souls fires
when they rhyme
life's purpose can begin
the first time
we knew we had always been
on the same team
we'd always been
each others dream
the first time we kissed we knew we were a dream
and there was no down about what this life could mean
the promise of every fairy tale
the hero we know can never fail
the moment we know our search is done
is the moment we woke to find our dream had begun
i have always dreamed this dream of loving you
and now there was just one thing left to do
the moment we accepted what we always knew
is the moment our dream came true
the first time our eyes met we knew we knew
that was the moment... our dream came true
it's saturday night
it's 10:46
and i am still looking
to get my fix
of love
still there is not enough love
in my life
every night
i lie awake
wondering when
the love i gave
will be equal to
the love i receive
believe
oh i still want to believe
in the love of fairy tales
in the love that never fails
in the love that never dies
in the love that always satisfied
it's saturday night
it's 10:51
i don't want to sleep
i am not done
with love
there is still not enough love
in my night
all my life
i gave it all
took every leap
took every fall
can you give too much
help me understand
unconditional
can it be planned?
or is love just a roll of dice
or is love just the melting of ice
believe
oh i still want to believe
in the love of fairy tales
in the love that never fails
in the love that never dies
in the love that always satisfied
it's saturday night
10:55
and i want you to know
i am alive
and i want to be
satisfied
with love
still there is not enough love
not enough love
not enough love
heard you went camping with friends
and your new lover, building your new life
doesn't mean we have to end
i can love you and your new wife
all that really matters
is what we're feeling
the memories
alive in the moment
all that really matters
is what we're sharing
how much we care
alive in the moment
alive in the moment
alive in the moment
the moment
the moment
and i wish i was sleeping
under the stars
with you
tonight
and i wish we were speaking
under the stars
together
tonight
and i look up at the sky
and you look up at the sky
and no matter where we are
we see the same stars
we are together in our hearts
together in our minds
no matter where we are
we can find
we are living in the moment
under the stars
together
each night
we are living in the moment
under the stars
wherever
we're right
bonded by our love
our trust, our bond never ends
believing in each other
we'll always be friends
so here i am am sleeping
under the stars
with you
tonight
our hearts are still speaking
under the stars
together
tonight
as i look up at the sky
and you look up at the sky
no matter where we are
we see the same stars
we are together in our hearts
together in our minds
no matter where we are
we can find
we are living in the moment
under the stars
together
each night
we are living in the moment
under the stars
wherever
we're right
wherever we are
we are under the stars
together
each night
living in the moment
under the stars
wherever
alright
living in the moment
under the stars
together
tonight
every day i wonder
are you too busy for me
would i be intruding if
i reach out to you tonight
i just want to do right
every day i wonder
are you thinking of me
would i be welcome if
i called you up tonight
would it be alright
would i hear it in your voice
would i be able to tell
if your eyes were rolling
or if you were smiling
could you be wondering to
if i am thinking of you
and just looking at your phone
wondering if i am home
do you know that you need never feel lonely
that i am always willing to be here for you
do you know that you are still the only one
who made my fondest dream of love come true
i wonder if you ever really knew
and i wonder if you wonder too
every day i wonder
are you too busy for me
would i be intruding if
i reach out to you tonight
i just want to do right
every day i wonder
are you thinking of me
would i be welcome if
i called you up tonight
would it be alright
you called me the love of your life
but never heard my heart was not yours
were you hoping i would fall for you
that is not what falling in love is for
it either happens or it does not
and i told you it did not for me
you told me that you had no choice
your love for me ignored my words
my selfishness ignored your voice
our choices create our lot
i wish i never let it go so far
for now i do not know where you are
i miss how much you were devoted to me
did my leaving set you free?
when we met you were pregnant with someone’s child
i never knew who he was or why he was not around
i’m not sure why i didn’t ask and now i wonder why
was i just happy you needed me and not the other guy?
when we met you were grieving, your father just died
you still lived at home, never on your own, eyes wide
just a child with a child and i took you in and shared my life
but the one thing i never wanted you to be was my wife
i tried to be kind, was i too kind?...
or is kindness cruel in the end?
you wanted me to fall in love
i wanted a best friend
you wanted a lover
i wanted a mother
too late we discovered
the two do not mix
how do people measure
what’s comfort or pleasure
when you break a treasure
maybe there is no fix
we never really saw eye to eye
maybe you chose the wrong guy
i wish i never let it go so far
for now i do not know where you are
i miss how much you were devoted to me
did my leaving set you free?
i bought you a house, then i let it go
if you paid it off it is worth five times what we paid
you wanted a spouse, i wanted a show
we were both victims of the game we played
and did we let money get in the way?
you called me the love of your life
but never heard my heart was not yours
were you hoping i would fall for you
that is not what falling in love is for
it either happens or it does not
and i told you it did not for me
you told me that you had no choice
your love for me ignored my words
my selfishness ignored your voice
our choices create our lot
i wish i never let it go so far
for now i do not know where you are
i miss how much you were devoted to me
did my leaving set you free?
if i fantasize about you every night
would you tell me it is wrong or it's alright?
if i promise all my heart and soul to you
would you tell me it's a dream that can't come true?
if i prayed to every god to hold your hand
would you tell me that you don't undestand?
if i lived my life to make your dreams come true
would you tell me i'm a fool - i wish i knew
and if i reached out to touch you
what would you do?
just a look in your eyes
has me mesmerized
just the way that you smile
melts me - is it your style?
just the way that you walk
just the way that you talk
just the way that you are
am i going too far?
and if i never actually get you to notice me
if this love i feel remains only a fantasy
if all that comes of this is the song i sing
i will still give you everything
for the dream of you and the hope you bring
makes me feel like a king
and if this kingom is all in my mind
in this life
it is . . .
all i need to find
the look in your eyes
all i need to find
just the way that you smile
all i need to find
just the way that you walk
all i need to find
just the way that you talk
all i need to find
just the way that you are
all i need to find
all i need to do
to make all my dreams come true
is dream
of you
to make all my dreams come true
all i need to find
is you
how I would love to get up your skirt
and take you to where nothing can hurt
where rockets go off and sirens wail
and you feel like you could never fail
in that moment of bliss
when the four lips kiss
and the bodies entwine
how I wish you were mine
(I will make you mine)
will you let me in
will you let me in
will you let me in
portishead sings glory box
and love begins
how I would love to dive into your eyes
and find out where the whole truth lies
in that moment when nothing can hide
and you let love reach you deep inside
in that moment of high
when you could just die
and you find you live
with so much to give
(how I want to give)
will you let me give
will you let me give
will you let me give
if you looked at me i would let you in
and ask you to tell me where to begin
to show you i care and want to be your friend
that's the kind of love that has no end
if you kissed me i would not hide my surprise
i would ask you who lives behind your eyes
what does your heart want most in this life
and your dreams, can we wake them tonight
found your comment and came to see
who you might be
and what you might inspire in me
i wish you the world, whatever you want
and all you want to be
that's all for now, i'll take my leave
you know where to find me
if you came to my door i would let you in
with hope something beautiful could begin
take your comfort, trust your instincts now
and be yourself as only you know how
there was a time I was so adored
and I never meant to hurt anyone
there were people who knew my heart
where all there is is love and fun
there were people I trusted unconditionally
and people who trusted me
but I wanted too much and they’re gone
I pushed them away with my carrying on
cuz the first lesson I learn in life
was that people do not stick around
abandonment became
a self-fulfilled prophesy
and now my heart beat is a lonely sound
I wish I knew better back then
before I pushed away all my friends
I wish I didn’t test how much they loved me
just to prove everybody pretends
I wish I knew how to compromise
before I gave into all the lies
I wish I didn’t push everybody away
just to prove no one would stay
doesn’t anybody understand
I will die for love
and I have more than once in this life
won’t somebody hold my hand
to live for love
where is my long lost wife
I sit awake alone at night
writing these songs
dreaming of loving once again
do I hold on too tight
do I let go too fast
I wish I knew better now
than I did then
now I wonder did you ever feel as loved
as when you let me love you
was it too much or not enough
will I ever know what is true
now I wonder if you ever believe i
would love you beyond the day I die
here I am in a place with no time
still loving you – that is my crime
doesn’t anybody understand
I will die for love
and I have more than once in this life
won’t somebody hold my hand
to live for love
where is my long lost wife
I sit awake alone at night
writing these songs
dreaming of loving once again
do I hold on too tight
do I let go too fast
I wish I knew better now
than I did then
1993 we met in correspondence she knew exactly what to write to get into my heart and mind
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
1995 she confessed her love for me she told me her whole life was a lie she needed me so she could fly
love is forever love always grows this is the most precious dream I know
1997 two years of bliss and pain I gave her control of my brain she tried to make me go insane
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
1999 I gave her everything I could from far away I waited for her to do what she said she would
all the while she was begging me to hang on all the while she was asking for everything I could give all the while she was keeping me living in yesterday using the power I gave her to keep me so far away
1999 she begged me to hold on wait for me, she said, and I did even when she was gone
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
I never really knew what was going on all I knew was that my heart was gone she begged me to leave it in her hands is there anyone who understands?
2001 I crawled back to where I came from finding myself lost and broken half waiting half trying to understand what happened and how to begin again without my heart, how to begin again
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
2004 a correspondence, first time in three years I felt my anger and pain dissolve in precious tears I asked her why she actualized my greatest fear I asked her to return my heart and mind if she would not come here her silence fell upon me once again (I asked, why won’t you share?) her indecision rose like a wall once again (I asked, why don’’t you care?) only to find her that she would once again… disappear
I thought my heart was open I thought my doors were open I thought I was ready for love so why am I alone
I thought that I was free and I thought that I was me and I thought I was over the past I though that I had known
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
2008 again a few words from so far away she confessed she used me, what else was there to say was I the fool still waiting for her to return my heart? and now, am I free?... where and how do I start?
she said she married another and he gave her a child she moved on but she still will not let go there is no room in her life for me today but she will not let go is it because I know
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
love is forever the best I’ve got how it can end is something I still do not know
all the while she was begging me to hang on all the while she was asking for everything I could give all the while she was keeping me living in yesterday using the power I gave her to keep me so far away
I never really knew what was going on all I knew was that my heart was gone she begged me to leave it in her hands is there anyone who understands?
she still keeps the best of me under her lock and key even though she started over long ago had another child with another man in 1999, oh and yet she still will not return the things that keep me hanging on so what am I to do when my heart and mind are gone? this is the only way I know to carry on
love is forever no matter what love is still the most precious dream I know
if you don’t like to be touched, keep your distance i have learned how to feel like that but it is not really me if you don’t like to be hugged, keep your distance i have learned how to keep mine, but that is not really me
i want to find some one who will remind me who i am how i feel and how i love to be felt i want to find someone who can believe and understand how true love makes a heart melt can your mind melt can your body melt when was the last time you felt how you love to be felt
if you don’t like to be touched, keep your distance i have learned to be afraid but that is not really me if you don’t like to be loved, keep your distance i have learned how to be numb, but that is not really me
i know why i am down deep inside i know i’ve learned how to run and hide i’ve learned how to pretend i’ve died but there is so much more denied and sharing will remind me sharing will make it real again sharing will help me find me sharing will let me feel again sharing’s the answer sharing is what life’s about so much has been buried deep inside sharing will let it back out
i want to find some one who can really share how it feels to be in love and be felt i want to find someone who can believe and understand how true love makes a heart melt can your mind melt can your body melt when was the last time you felt how you love to be felt
when you’re sharing life is sharing i want to be sharing
and sharing will remind you sharing will make it real again sharing will help you find you sharing will let you feel again sharing’s the answer sharing is what life’s about so much has been buried deep inside sharing will let it back out
lost in the revelry a lonely voice sighs counting the promises that have turned into lies and in the morning light an innocent cries picking up the pieces of life's greatest prize
and where are the friends we used to know where is the caring all of the love, where did it go where is the sharing
once we could trust each other like sisters and brothers and now we hide behind locked doors
if i give you mine tonight could i ask for yours?
lost in the cacophony a lonely heart beats counting the moments passing as little defeats living a life alone a social life dies we are social beings is this a surprise?
so where are the friends we used to know where is the caring ` all of the love, where did it go where is the sharing
once we could trust each other like sisters and brothers and now we hide behind locked doors
if i give you mine tonight could i ask for yours?
are there still dreamers dreaming the dreams that created fairy tales? are there still poets imagining a love that never fails? are there still children sharing pretending without a world of fears? are there still people living happily ever after anywhere?
lost in the industry a lonely hand asks will anyone hold me today between all the tasks and in the dark of night loneliness on the rise counting the years passing wondering why
we share less and less, and then we die why oh why oh why why don't we learn to share more before we die? can we learn to share more before we die?
oh where are the friends we used to know where is the caring ` all of the love, where did it go where is the sharing
once we could trust each other like sisters and brothers and now we hide behind locked doors
the loyalty simplicity a dog will give you more unconditional love just lying on the floor than people ever gave before for dogs do not want to go to war and dogs only want to feel secure to be loved more and more
a heart is like a dog the loyalty simplicity a heart will give you more unconditional love just lying next to you feeling as it did before it ever learned to fear or go to war for hearts only want to feel secure to be loved more and more
and when a heart is broken the infant inside awakens to unspoken tears to be cried
the heart wants to mend but afraid to bend and afraid to fall
so the heart goes to sleep hoping dreams will keep no feeling at all
sleeping like a log i'd rather be a dog
the sleeping dog mends with his only friends a bone and a ball
and when the dog wakes like when the bow breaks the cradle will fall
and the baby cries and the dream dies the baby cries the dream dies
but is that hope i see in your eyes?... where the sleeping dog lies... can we be so wise? is it a surprise?
the dog is like you the dog is like me the loyalty the simplicity and we can share much more unconditional love than we ever did before if we do not want to go to war if we only want to feel secure to be loved more and more
and you say you love the way i rhyme well where have you been all this time why should i give you what you want when i am still bleeding what are you needing why are you back now after all this time what's in it for me?
and you bring the same praise and etiquette another husband, but does he know yet why should i believe this is not one more set up to be shot i gave it all i got how much can we hope to forget and why should we?
what good is trusting you now it's hard to reach the middle of one's own back the knife has been twisting for years all the blood has thrown me off track washed away in a river of tears after all rain that has been falling i may have to hide when i'm calling
married women are nothing but trouble when you get too close even worse when you turn around and you've got ghosts
and you stroke my ego oh so well well why should i believe you now relegated to the trash for so long what could be missing from your life that you'd bring me back me and my knife do you want my blessing for your husband and wife do you want forgiveness do you want the knife how much more of my life do you want this time? and all because you say you love the way i rhyme -- what now, this time... the way i rhyme.
it's so weird no way to check who is checking on me it's so weird to have this window on the world through which i cannot see it's so strange to have taken you for granted for so long it's so strange that you don't even know that i am writing you this song
world on the web friends far away electronic words so much to say yet in a blink everything's gone and even if you don't think you could carry on you carry on
it's so weird after ten years of writing each day it's so weird not like i have nothing left to say it's so strange like losing a link to a part of me it's so strange to have this window on the world through which i cannot see
world on the web where have you gone i'll still right here babbling on yet in a blink we're out of touch and even if you think it doesn't mean so much it means so much
what are we beyond the image of who we think we might be based only on the words we read and write and sometimes say we're still just a phone call away
but what is it that becomes something when nothing is here is it all our imaginations that lead us to believe we really care when the connection just seems to disappear
it's so weird to be so dependent on blogs and email it's so weird to miss it so much when connections fail it's so strange i know i'm not the only one who feels this way but here i sit alone writing these words and here these words and i alone will stay
it's so weird no way to check who is checking on me it's so weird to have this window on the world through which i cannot see it's so strange to have taken you for granted for so long it's so strange that you don't even know that i am writing you this song
you seem to want to fit me into your life the question is where and how far how much time and space are you prepared to share after all, penetration is not something to be taken lightly
though humor is my favorite sword and shield it is also filled with great insight and is my saving grace sanity is maintained by finding it everywhere i wonder where you find yours and what lives (or dies) behind your closed doors
i might say i almost feel comfortable with you but i must admit i feel comfortable anywhere i wonder if i still flinch at the thought of unconditional trust after all, suicide is not something to be taken lightly
within the humor lies a simple puzzle though still intricate and as complex as you want it to be peace lives deep within the irreverence i wonder where you find yours and what lived (or died) during your past wars
shall we ignore the attraction? say it is all in my mind? sometimes safety in numbers is still not as safe as staying alone
shall we ignore the affection? say we don't want to give? sometimes shutting down is still not as safe as going all in
when you are at that point where you can say what have i got to lose that i haven't lost already you might give up and just wait alone to die or share the superficial already dead inside or just go for the sharing one more time unconditional trust and honest love that is a rhyme
you seem to want to find a way to rhyme with me the question is how and how much how much time and space are you prepared to share after all, imitation is not something to be taken lightly
though logic is my favorite song and dance it is also filled with great mystery and controversy consciousness is maintained by finding it everywhere i wonder where you find yours and what lives (or dies) behind your closed doors
when you are at that point where you can say what have i got to lose that i haven't lost already you might give up and just wait alone to die or share the superficial already dead inside or just go for the sharing one more time unconditional trust and honest love i'll go for unconditional trust and honest love one more time... that is a rhyme
when i was younger and much more romantic i believed in falling in love even though i knew deep down it was a choice i willing gave up my senses and voice back then, secure as a friend, i believe in the human heart so now i wonder was it just false faith when did my dreams fall apart?
when people are cruel to each other when you try to fool your brother when people take all they can pretending to care till it's gone
i wonder what they discover what do you get out of it? if you ask me, people turn love into a pile of shit
now don't get me wrong see, i wrote this song with hope in my heart and tears in my eyes because i am scared i need a reprieve from the evidence for i want to believe but i see human beings everywhere we go destroying and hating the smile's just for show
you can misunderstand if you want to it's probably easier that way but if you're in earshot then maybe you hear what i say
i don't know where i belong humanity has love all wrong but i wrote this song with hope in my heart will you prove me wrong?
when people are cruel to each other when you try to fool your brother when people take all they can pretending to care til it's gone
i wonder what they discover what do you get out of it? if you ask me, people turn love into a pile of shit
you can misunderstand if you want to it's probably easier that way but if you're in earshot then maybe you hear what i say
i don't know where i belong humanity has love all wrong but i wrote this song with hope in my heart will you prove me wrong?
do you want to make love tonight? i mean how do you feel about it i ask as a friend, not as a come on are you one who can take it of leave it or are you one who can't live without it
do you want to make love right now? i mean how important is it to you? money sex power food or possessions which of these are most important to you? i ask because i want to know you
before we can go any further before we can grow any closer we need to be honest with each other about what really turns us on
oh sure we can fake an orgasm or we can pretend we are kind for a moment we can be anything but who lives deep inside your mind that's what i want to find
oh yeah we can be well in control existential or generous or casual for a moment we can be anything but what really motivates your rise and what would cause your fall
what i offer is what i want to receive the most precious thing to me can only be honest unconditional love and trust if this is too much then just keep looking past me i am looking for someone who understands can we place our lives in each other's hands not in some fantasy or fairy tail but in the real world where we just might fail
there are no perfect people only perfect intentions can we trust we offer the same? the next thing you do the next word you say will let me into your game now will you tell me your name?
do you want do you want do you want what do you want tonight?
do you want do you want do you want what do you want tonight?
I suppose I could have forced you in spite of yourself all I had to do was support you and take all your abuse I suppose I could have heard you when you said you were a bitch and all you ever knew was using men like mindlessly scratching an itch
i could have gotten through a lot sooner than this before I hit the street so hard you know I made you the queen of everything and you wanted more, but you couldn't handle being god
queen of sheeba martyr hari mother diva wouldn't marry you just wanted everything heart soul body mind spirit life without strings
I suppose I could have been stronger in spite of myself all I had to do was grow up more and rise above your noose I suppose I could have broken you instead of letting you break me but you were already so damaged inside that I just let you take me
it could have been much less dramatic than this before so much life passed by you know how precious time is to me and you wanted it all but you couldn't handle eternity
such a waste of time such a waste of love did it make you better to watch it burn? ashes to ashes in your wake will you ever know you are less with every heart you break the more you give the more you are you only have what you take
I'd rather be than own that is being free... and home I'd rather give than take that is knowing love... awake
queen of sheeba martyr hari mother diva wouldn't marry you just wanted everything heart soul body mind spirit life without strings
lost in your fear you may never hear or know just what is wrong but maybe someday you will understand so on the back of a xmas carol... I wrote you this song
