if i fantasize about you every night
would you tell me it is wrong or it's alright?
if i promise all my heart and soul to you
would you tell me it's a dream that can't come true?
if i prayed to every god to hold your hand
would you tell me that you don't undestand?
if i lived my life to make your dreams come true
would you tell me i'm a fool - i wish i knew
and if i reached out to touch you
what would you do?
just a look in your eyes
has me mesmerized
just the way that you smile
melts me - is it your style?
just the way that you walk
just the way that you talk
just the way that you are
am i going too far?
and if i never actually get you to notice me
if this love i feel remains only a fantasy
if all that comes of this is the song i sing
i will still give you everything
for the dream of you and the hope you bring
makes me feel like a king
and if this kingom is all in my mind
in this life
it is . . .
all i need to find
the look in your eyes
all i need to find
just the way that you smile
all i need to find
just the way that you walk
all i need to find
just the way that you talk
all i need to find
just the way that you are
all i need to find
all i need to do
to make all my dreams come true
is dream
of you
to make all my dreams come true
all i need to find
is you
how I would love to get up your skirt
and take you to where nothing can hurt
where rockets go off and sirens wail
and you feel like you could never fail
in that moment of bliss
when the four lips kiss
and the bodies entwine
how I wish you were mine
(I will make you mine)
will you let me in
will you let me in
will you let me in
portishead sings glory box
and love begins
how I would love to dive into your eyes
and find out where the whole truth lies
in that moment when nothing can hide
and you let love reach you deep inside
in that moment of high
when you could just die
and you find you live
with so much to give
(how I want to give)
will you let me give
will you let me give
will you let me give
if you looked at me i would let you in
and ask you to tell me where to begin
to show you i care and want to be your friend
that's the kind of love that has no end
if you kissed me i would not hide my surprise
i would ask you who lives behind your eyes
what does your heart want most in this life
and your dreams, can we wake them tonight
found your comment and came to see
who you might be
and what you might inspire in me
i wish you the world, whatever you want
and all you want to be
that's all for now, i'll take my leave
you know where to find me
if you came to my door i would let you in
with hope something beautiful could begin
take your comfort, trust your instincts now
and be yourself as only you know how
there was a time I was so adored
and I never meant to hurt anyone
there were people who knew my heart
where all there is is love and fun
there were people I trusted unconditionally
and people who trusted me
but I wanted too much and they’re gone
I pushed them away with my carrying on
cuz the first lesson I learn in life
was that people do not stick around
abandonment became
a self-fulfilled prophesy
and now my heart beat is a lonely sound
I wish I knew better back then
before I pushed away all my friends
I wish I didn’t test how much they loved me
just to prove everybody pretends
I wish I knew how to compromise
before I gave into all the lies
I wish I didn’t push everybody away
just to prove no one would stay
doesn’t anybody understand
I will die for love
and I have more than once in this life
won’t somebody hold my hand
to live for love
where is my long lost wife
I sit awake alone at night
writing these songs
dreaming of loving once again
do I hold on too tight
do I let go too fast
I wish I knew better now
than I did then
now I wonder did you ever feel as loved
as when you let me love you
was it too much or not enough
will I ever know what is true
now I wonder if you ever believe i
would love you beyond the day I die
here I am in a place with no time
still loving you – that is my crime
doesn’t anybody understand
I will die for love
and I have more than once in this life
won’t somebody hold my hand
to live for love
where is my long lost wife
I sit awake alone at night
writing these songs
dreaming of loving once again
do I hold on too tight
do I let go too fast
I wish I knew better now
than I did then
people have become untrustworthy
the hope once held in the human heart
is gone
gone
gone
people have become undeserving
the love once held for the human heart
is gone
gone
gone
people can be bought and sold too easily
people are too gullible for reality
people prefer ignorance delusion and fantasy
to knowledge awareness and honesty
just look around if you do not believe me
unless you really do not want to see
are you just like all the people lost in futile fantasy
people are you people just pretending to be free
people are you people entropy
and in the end...
people have become...
people have become...
people have become...
undone
i was once so sensitive that i'd cry
if i saw anger in someone's eye
everywhere i looked i saw hate and strife
all the cruelty of every life
all i could do was hope it would end
when i found someone to be my friend
but i found no one who did not betray
the words of love they tried to say
and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i think my heart and mind got old
and i think my soul was somehow sold
and i think i was never told
the truth
i was once so considerate that i would
give everything i could just to be good
for kindness was the best feeling i could feel
and giving unconditionally made it real
but i found no one would give the same way
people take advantage and then do not stay
but i found no one who did not betray
the words of trust they tried to say
and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i think my heart and mind got old
and i think my soul was somehow sold
and i think i was never told
the truth
so is this pathos, a poor me song
is this a foolish game dragging me along
i don't want anything from you
unless you can tell me... what is true?
i was once so generous that i'd give
everything away, that's just how i lived
now i find myself alone and feeling so tired
i can barely remember how i was once so inspired
to believe in the human heart
and in love that never ends
now i find myself alone
wondering... where is my friend
and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i think my heart and mind got old
and i think my soul was somehow sold
and i think i was never told
the truth
and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i wonder if it's time to fold or unfold
and i feel like i have been rolled
and i think i was never told
the truth
maybe i'm depressed
maybe i'm a mess
maybe i am just tired of games
maybe this is your song
are you singing along
will you give me your real names?
is this embarrassing
do you feel anything
or have you grown this numb too?
i wonder what you think
i wonder what you drink
i wonder what surprises you
i was once so curious that i'd ask
everyone i met to remove their mask
everywhere i looked i was lies and strife
and i did not believe that was real life
I want to believe in the human heart
and in love that never ends
now i find myself alone
I don't want to pretend
it's ok...
I still find myself alone
wondering... where is my friend
and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i think my heart and mind got old
and i think my soul was somehow sold
and i think i was never told
the truth
and i think i've grown hard and cold
and i wonder if it's time to fold or unfold
and i feel like i have been rolled
and i think i was never told
the truth
i wonder if you're too busy
i wonder if you're depressed
i wonder if you're just dizzy
i wonder if you're upset
i wonder if you are hearing
voices telling you to run
or someone demanding you do not
continue what you have begun
i wonder if you are feeling
i wonder if you are numb
i wonder if you just want to
punish yourself for things you've done
i wonder if you are being
careless or insensitive
have you turned off your heart again
or just think you have nothing to give
i am wondering about you
what is real and what is true
what you want and what you do
i am wondering about you
i am wondering about you
what is old and what is new
what inspires you to break through
i am wondering about you
i wonder if you're sleeping
it's the middle of the night
i wonder if you're dreaming
about darkness or light
i wonder if you're sharing
what is real and what is true
i wonder if you're caring
that i am wondering about you
i wonder what shuts you down
i wonder what turns you on
i wonder what remains
i wonder what is gone
i wonder what went on here
and did i miss the signs
i wonder what you wanted
betwixt and between the lines
i am wondering about you
what is real and what is true
what you want and what you do
i am wondering about you
i am wondering about you
what is old and what is new
what inspires you to break through
i am wondering about you
i wonder if you're sleeping
it's the middle of the night
i wonder if you're dreaming
about darkness or light
i wonder if you're sharing
what is real and what is true
i wonder if you're caring
that i am wondering about you
if this is all you want
then this is what i give
the best i can do
is give you what you want
if this is what you need
then this is what shall be
the best i can do
is help your fantasy
come true
you have a gift with words
this is what you inspire
the best i can do
is fulfill your desire
some see a sacrifice
some see a foolish game
some see the end product
some only see a name
but whatever it is, it's yours
claim to fame
here's glue for your broken wings
here's food for your soul
here's magic to do anything
here's what you can't control
make it yours for it's yours
if you want it to be
the best i can do
is feed your fantasy
and that's reality
1993 we met in correspondence she knew exactly what to write to get into my heart and mind
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
1995 she confessed her love for me she told me her whole life was a lie she needed me so she could fly
love is forever love always grows this is the most precious dream I know
1997 two years of bliss and pain I gave her control of my brain she tried to make me go insane
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
1999 I gave her everything I could from far away I waited for her to do what she said she would
all the while she was begging me to hang on all the while she was asking for everything I could give all the while she was keeping me living in yesterday using the power I gave her to keep me so far away
1999 she begged me to hold on wait for me, she said, and I did even when she was gone
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
I never really knew what was going on all I knew was that my heart was gone she begged me to leave it in her hands is there anyone who understands?
2001 I crawled back to where I came from finding myself lost and broken half waiting half trying to understand what happened and how to begin again without my heart, how to begin again
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
2004 a correspondence, first time in three years I felt my anger and pain dissolve in precious tears I asked her why she actualized my greatest fear I asked her to return my heart and mind if she would not come here her silence fell upon me once again (I asked, why won’t you share?) her indecision rose like a wall once again (I asked, why don’’t you care?) only to find her that she would once again… disappear
I thought my heart was open I thought my doors were open I thought I was ready for love so why am I alone
I thought that I was free and I thought that I was me and I thought I was over the past I though that I had known
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
2008 again a few words from so far away she confessed she used me, what else was there to say was I the fool still waiting for her to return my heart? and now, am I free?... where and how do I start?
she said she married another and he gave her a child she moved on but she still will not let go there is no room in her life for me today but she will not let go is it because I know
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
love is forever the best I’ve got how it can end is something I still do not know
all the while she was begging me to hang on all the while she was asking for everything I could give all the while she was keeping me living in yesterday using the power I gave her to keep me so far away
I never really knew what was going on all I knew was that my heart was gone she begged me to leave it in her hands is there anyone who understands?
she still keeps the best of me under her lock and key even though she started over long ago had another child with another man in 1999, oh and yet she still will not return the things that keep me hanging on so what am I to do when my heart and mind are gone? this is the only way I know to carry on
love is forever no matter what love is still the most precious dream I know
I am so far from the person I used to be I used to sing I used to dance I used to love passion, romance I used to run I used to fly I used to dream my mind could touch the sky I used to feel the human touch I used to want to be in love too much
how far I fell to hear love’s calling could it be that I am still falling
love is forever no matter what this is the most precious dream I know
