with words (hope and illusion)

to fall in love with words is to fall in love with the writer with the ideas with the feelings they inspire and when i read your words i fall in love and feel lighter with illusion i welcome uncontrolled desire you can stay a fantasy that would be alright with me unless you want to be more reality in my life no one can say what might be if we were closer physically though my gut tells me the friend you could be or a wife it is just an impulse, instinct, thought in my mind but what is real in the end? all i know is that when i read your words i feel i am reading the thoughts of a friend

word play 101 (irony is a bitch)

true that irony is a bitch
sometimes you've just got to itch
but here's the catch
sometimes all you do is scratch

word play can be dangerous
like a loaded gun
let's play russian roulette
just for fun

truth slips out of hiding places
we forgot we had
some will run away in fear
some will just get mad

i suppose i could say
you were the best i ever had
but fuck, i never had you
should that make us sad

it doesn't matter anyway
the censors have gone dumb
blind and deaf is comfortable
pink and green gone numb

but if you overcome the fear
and believe in the heart
honest love can still save you
or at least it's a start

maybe i oughta start a new style
not bitch slapping a newborn
something sweeter and demure
call it emo porn
or rapping corn

corn rap?
more crap?

don't feel nothing profound tonight
just want to keep in touch
no matter who you're fucking tonight
i still love you this much

enough to write this crappy song
enough to play the fool
but if it makes it on the radio
everyone will think it's cool

life's a bitch and then you die
so make the most of your days
or whatever you want to do
pack it with cliches

in the end it doesn't matter
some remember, some forget
life goes on for other people
have i blown your hard-on yet?

yeah, this song is a sexy song
put it on when you make love
tell her you love her, but don't tell her
it's me you're really thinking of

don't feel nothing profound tonight
just want to keep in touch
no matter who you're fucking tonight
i still love you this much

keep the honesty to a minimum
haven't you learned that lesson
he'll be happy with what you're giving him
he won't miss what you don't mention

word play 101,
class is in session

one look

one look at your photo and all i could think was
may i please see more of you?
the turn on was instant, exciting and melting
there was just one thing to do

you've become the dream i want to come true
you've become the one i want to come to
you've become the only dream i want to dream of
you've become the image... of my love

and i want you to be
more than a fantasy
i want you to be
the one in reality
i want you to see
all there is to me
please say it could be
please come to me

one look at your face and i knew it was you
the one i've i've always dreamed of
the turn on was magic, so wondrous and precious
you've come to define my love

you've become the dream i want to come true
you've become the one i want to come to
you've become the only dream i want to dream of
you've become the image... of my love

and i want you to be
more than a fantasy
i want you to be
the one in reality
i want you to see
all there is to me
please say it could be
please come to me

one look and...

and i want you to be
more than a fantasy
i want you to be
the one in reality
i want you to see
all there is to me
please say it could be
please come to me

. . .

she was a dream

the first time i saw her i knew she was a dream
there was no doubt in my mind that we were a team
every night we won every game we played
every day we kept the promise we made
every time our eyes met we knew
we were one even though we were two

the first time i touched her i knew she was a dream
just as the sun and moon are the same light beam
we reflect each other's energy
existing in perfect symmetry
every doubt and fear was left behind
as if we can read each other's mind

all through time
we all have some secret desires
yours and mine
they ignite our souls fires
when they rhyme
life's purpose can begin
the first time
we knew we had always been
on the same team
we'd always been
each others dream

the first time we kissed we knew we were a dream
and there was no down about what this life could mean
the promise of every fairy tale
the hero we know can never fail
the moment we know our search is done
is the moment we woke to find our dream had begun

i have always dreamed this dream of loving you
and now there was just one thing left to do
the moment we accepted what we always knew
is the moment our dream came true

the first time our eyes met we knew we knew
that was the moment... our dream came true

saturday night unsatisfied

it's saturday night
it's 10:46
and i am still looking
to get my fix
of love
still there is not enough love
in my life

every night
i lie awake
wondering when
the love i gave
will be equal to
the love i receive
believe
oh i still want to believe
in the love of fairy tales
in the love that never fails
in the love that never dies
in the love that always satisfied

it's saturday night
it's 10:51
i don't want to sleep
i am not done
with love
there is still not enough love
in my night

all my life
i gave it all
took every leap
took every fall
can you give too much
help me understand
unconditional
can it be planned?
or is love just a roll of dice
or is love just the melting of ice
believe
oh i still want to believe
in the love of fairy tales
in the love that never fails
in the love that never dies
in the love that always satisfied

it's saturday night
10:55
and i want you to know
i am alive
and i want to be
satisfied
with love
still there is not enough love
not enough love
not enough love

lonely life

life gets lonely when friends move away
when the one you live with does not want to stay
from strangers to roommates to partners and friends
it's usually sad when the sharing ends

and you know you'll move on
and you'll find someone new
and sort of replace them
and come out of the blue
but just for a while
there is time to digest
and feel sad and lonely
before what comes next
some slumber in new fantasies
or linger in sweet memories

you can wonder why no one comes knocking at your door
you can wonder why your phone does not ring
you can sit home alone wondering if no one cares
but all that wondering does not change a thing

when you're ready you'll go out and say hello
to old friends and strangers with hope in your eyes
and maybe somebody will come and not go
but whatever happens...

life gets lonely when friends move away
when the one you live with does not want to stay
from strangers to roommates to partners and friends
it's usually sad when the sharing ends

so now there is room in your life and your space
so how do you let the world know
without seeming too vulnerable or desperate
without letting too much of the lonely show
are you ready to go out and say hello?
or do you slumber in new fantasies
or linger in sweet memories
sweet memories

yes you know you'll move on
and you'll find someone new
and sort of replace them
and come out of the blue
but until you do
until you do
until you do

life gets lonely when friends move away
when the one you live with does not want to stay
from strangers to roommates to partners and friends
it's usually sad when the sharing ends

who will be there in the end

listening to the words of a song
from a movie that was a play
will someone care

sung by the members of a life support group
for people dying of aids
suddenly i am aware

that everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end

and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end

we're all asking
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass
will i lose my dignity
will someone care

it may be more obvious with cancer or aids
but we all share the same fear
of being alone at the end

old age is the final card that is played
if none of the others do it,
old age will, my friend

for everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end

and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end

we're all asking
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass
will i lose my dignity
will someone care

sometimes i want to end it all while i can
rather than be alone when i'm helpless at the end
sometimes i want to end it all, do you understand?
no one answers when i ask who will be the friend?

we're all asking
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass
will i lose my dignity
will someone care

for everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end

and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end

camping (alive in the moment)

heard you went camping with friends
and your new lover, building your new life
doesn't mean we have to end
i can love you and your new wife
all that really matters
is what we're feeling
the memories
alive in the moment
all that really matters
is what we're sharing
how much we care
alive in the moment
alive in the moment
alive in the moment
the moment
the moment

and i wish i was sleeping
under the stars
with you
tonight

and i wish we were speaking
under the stars
together
tonight

and i look up at the sky
and you look up at the sky
and no matter where we are
we see the same stars
we are together in our hearts
together in our minds
no matter where we are
we can find

we are living in the moment
under the stars
together
each night

we are living in the moment
under the stars
wherever
we're right

bonded by our love
our trust, our bond never ends
believing in each other
we'll always be friends

so here i am am sleeping
under the stars
with you
tonight

our hearts are still speaking
under the stars
together
tonight

as i look up at the sky
and you look up at the sky
no matter where we are
we see the same stars
we are together in our hearts
together in our minds
no matter where we are
we can find

we are living in the moment
under the stars
together
each night

we are living in the moment
under the stars
wherever
we're right

wherever we are
we are under the stars
together
each night

living in the moment
under the stars
wherever
alright

living in the moment
under the stars
together
tonight

wonder

every day i wonder
are you too busy for me
would i be intruding if
i reach out to you tonight
i just want to do right

every day i wonder
are you thinking of me
would i be welcome if
i called you up tonight
would it be alright

would i hear it in your voice
would i be able to tell
if your eyes were rolling
or if you were smiling
could you be wondering to
if i am thinking of you
and just looking at your phone
wondering if i am home

do you know that you need never feel lonely
that i am always willing to be here for you
do you know that you are still the only one
who made my fondest dream of love come true
i wonder if you ever really knew
and i wonder if you wonder too

every day i wonder
are you too busy for me
would i be intruding if
i reach out to you tonight
i just want to do right

every day i wonder
are you thinking of me
would i be welcome if
i called you up tonight
would it be alright

i wonder
would it be alright

dia and harry

listening to your voice kept my heart alive
in the darkest moments when love betrayed trust
i don’t know how to explain how much you mean to me
and make it make sense, since we’ve never met
but have you ever read a book you belonged in?
have you ever heard a song your soul wrote to you?
was there ever a story, just words to your eyes
that became an epic monument in your mind?

listening to your voice takes me to a good place
a feeling that you understand something no one else could
and if that is just fantasy then please let me dream
for there is no reason to end something this good
when i read your words i feel like i belong there
when i heard you sing i feel like i should sing too
can we write a story, just words for our eyes
that becomes an epic monument in our minds?

would that be just kept in my imagination
or can you feel in these words some familiar sensation
maybe you see in me what i see in you
what stops us from knowing something real, something true
just tell me what you want me to do
if nothing else, i wish you knew

listening to your voice kept my heart alive
in the darkest moments when love betrayed trust
i don’t know how to explain how much you mean to me
and make it make sense, since we’ve never met

he asked,
” Is this real? Or has this been happening inside my head?
he said,
” Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry,
but why on earth should that mean it is not real?”

have you ever read a book you belonged in?
have you ever heard a song your soul wrote to you?
was there ever a story, just words to your eyes
that became an epic monument in your mind?

and i hope you see

you are that book
you are that song
you are that story
the epic monument
for me